A Christmas Poem, Merry XxX-Mas

Twas, the night before Christmas, and all through the house.
Not a creature was stirring, except for my mouse.

No kids lived with me, so I thought I would chatter.
There'd be no damn reindeer, and no stupid clatter.

There'd be no fat elf, coming through my chimney.
I'll be alone, my computer and me. Guess ill search
facebook and myspace for shones to keep me company.

I won't race to the window, to see him arrive.
I'll just sit right here..... with windows ninety-five.

There's no one I know, as I'm surfing around.
None of my regular buddies are found.

I went in some chat rooms, but quickly got out.
Age, sex, location is all that's about.

As, I was about to go check out the net.
I got an E-mail, that I didn't expect.

A lady told me, she had read my profile.
And, ask, if I might like to chat for a while.

Sure why not, i dont have a wife.
i really do hope that this shone is bout that life.

She said, if I didn't, then she would just leave.
But, she was so lonely, on this Christmas eve.

She said, it's the first time, she'd ever been on.
But, she heard, computers, could be so much fun.

She said, the computer, was usually locked tight.
But, she said, her husband, left it on....... tonight.

He's away on some business, He'll be gone all night.
So, she thought she'd use it, "I guess it's alright".

She started to tell me, about her whole life.
How, she was expected to be a good wife.

She talked of her anger, frustrations, and needs.
Because, she was forced, to do such silly deeds.

She talked on and on, from one thing to the next.
Then finally told me.......she was oversexed.

She didn't have sex, with her husband, she told.
He's always too busy, and getting too old.

old? you'll never 2 old to shone i said to myself

Then, she wrote me something, that made my heart vex.
She ask me to teach her, to have cyber-sex.

I said, if she wanted me to, that I could.
Then after an hour, she got really good.

After five hours, my fingers were sore.
I told her, that I couldn't go anymore.

She said, that was fine, because she was tired too.
And anyway, her husband, soon would be due.

She said she would be on, the same time next year.
Then ask, if I wouldn't mind, meeting her here.

She said, only.... on this night, she could be found.
It is only.... this night, her husband leaves town.

She said bye, and signed off.....and I had to pause.
I think I just cybered........with Mrs. Santa-Shone-A-Claus !!!!

Selfless

Selfless
By: S.F.R.

Motivated by no concern for oneself; unselfish. Having little or no concern for oneself, esp. with regard to fame, position, money, etc. Devoted to others' welfare or interest and not one's own. Having no regard to self, having no concern for self.

In selfless service, no one ever receives the fruits of their rewards. Through selfless service, eternal peace is obtained. Even now, I make no apologies for the choices I made. The sacrifices I made were selfless. The options offered were patriotic while the paths I chose were sometimes well thought out, others just winged. I do some selfless service for people who are in need. I consider the whole picture, not just my miniature self in a gigantic world, and do my part. I Study my part, Learn my part, and I play my part in life. A Meaningful person will always live and share meaningful moments because they live life in a meaningful way. Through selfless work, love grows in the heart. Then through grace one realizes love in the course of time. Love can be seen. God is seen. One can talk to him as I am talking to you. Only those who have learned the power of sincere and selfless contribution experience life's deepest joy: true fulfillment. Each person that I have met in my life has made a profound impact in my world and I thank them all with a passion. Ex’s & foes. Sometimes the impacts were temporarily seen and felt as positive or negative impact in my life; however at the end of the day if you could look deeper into the situation, the moment or the experience and learn something new or better yet learn something about yourself then your life can be much more intensified with meaning and joy. Real love is when you become selfless and you are more concerned about your mate's egos than your own. You're now a giver instead of a taker. So here’s the question of the hour, Can you love someone without that someone loving you back? Is love a feeling or a passion? Does love come with time or is it an instant feeling? Is Love a selfish act that one uses to justify their feelings or is it a selfless act? What is LOVE??? You never lose by loving. You always lose by holding back. Selfless to the senseless, sometimes that’s how it feels. So I do what comes natural to me,

Sean just being normal and selfless having, exhibiting, or motivated by no concern for oneself; unselfish. Having little or no concern for oneself, esp. with regard to fame, position, money, etc. Devoted to others' welfare or interest and not one's own. Having no regard to self, having no concern for self : UNSELFISH , Selfless .

iHeartu

When I saw u, I didn’t have to say anything
Yea, im weak, u touch me on my heart, like air
Yea right there
Love screaming!!!!
Snap ur finger, & love is here inside my future
There goes my nightmares
of
neverfinding love Breaking on the floor
Avoiding mirrors
By this love
reflexes,
Closing the door
Of that dark glass house
U make my body
warm

I know u wasn’t born with a silver spoon, so I fed you with disposable ones made from platinum
I see that I have something that I never had
Right now the price is
right
I play my own hand
Never shuffle, nor fold
In this love 2 became
whole
Like my foot woke up from being asleep
My love for u is screaming for attention like its stuck in a
hole
Im not a demon but a lost soul
walkin in circles
Thanks for finding me
Now my love is pass that cross road
So I stand 8 feet tall
Like a in-sole
Soft, Sometimes this love hurts like a swollen lymph
node
So I tell those who hate, Fuck U like a nym foe
my love flows like water into a new fish bowl
so now I cruise and drive slow
no fast forwards thru life,
This new love is born
Even after im dead and gone my love for you will still be felt, heard, but not missed.
Females, Bitches & hoes gay fans, now
pissed

Just being honest
I see no other females
So I Burn my lil black book and keep dancing
I call it love
Celibate, no1 else have that part of me that is rightfully yours…..abstain, no stains
making haters throw dem 2 fingers
not 1,2 peace, but the deuces
love is balling like swoosh
nike Jordan fused
u change me
Liver is clean, but lungs, that’s a taste of blueberry juice
kinda different like a mix of patron & goose
Pa-truce
Classy tipsy, never drunk

u is what was missing in my life
like a knife at thanksgiving
cum slow, beat like a con-go
in love’s zone
so I vibe
Wham that shit
Feeling gud like toy toni tone
looking me in my eyes
I go crazy
I cant stand to see u love some1 else
Id rather b blind

Ur love Kissed my hotspot, u know, under the ear
So I kiss u back
This love is open, spread
This story is red,
I mean read
Best thing since head
brain
This love gives me tears not from pain
Droves set free and the whole church cry’s from joy
Of my feeling for u
Pleasing so I please yah
Everyday knowing I have u is my Jesus birthday
Christmas
This love is a secret song
a dialogue only heaven knows
Yea rare, like an alive walking carebear
If love was guns, guess that would make my heart a gun store

Fantasy of words
So I write
Hate is taking a loss
Last words? Undescribable or Indescribable
Yea Jibberish
This feeling, This love, is intuition
love
of
wall-e finding his
Ev-a

i aint bout that life?
i live that life!

by myself

Theres comes a time in every1’s life
When god puts u in a place to
Find ur own way
Make do for yourself
So I do plan to fix myself
But first comes the pain
The heart break
I saw it
And wanted my risk and took it
I hurt my self
By myself
I really do feel as if I don’t have anything to look
Forward too
3, or for.
So I sit here wit
Glue
Trying to fix it
My heart
All by
My
Self….

Timing

Tick tock goes the clock
Time goes by
Some seconds slower than others
Years move faster and faster
Always moving
Time, the 1 thing that will keep on
Going
This note is very fresh
Its funny how a 5min phone call
Can change ur world
Bad news in her voice
And like that
Im searching for my pieces
Stressed
By this time
It was my timing
I was ahead
Now im waiting
Waiting on my time
Turnin 21
Sounded so fun
I wish I could go back
And just turn 1

Born

Born

The act of living
Human Being
Being?
Being wat?
Knowing yourself
Understand yourself
Which would be Ur knowledge
Your own Knowledge
How are u going to understand somebody else
If u cant understand urself?
Its get deeper
So u can feel where im coming from
How can u love somebody if you cant love ur self?

My Diamond In The Rough, Skin so soft it excites me. French pedicure, Neat, slim, Curve, Body. Perfect smile, Glow. Im addicted to her light. Making her own luck, Emotions universally control by the mind. We eye stare. If im dreaming don’t wake me, im dreaming of her. This girl, out of this world. Dreaming of me and her. She do her and I do me. She royal & loyal. Started friends, I want the ending more than a Relationship. Hear me. The fuck yous, The fought backs, late night bed fights, things get ugly, in handcuffs but never read rights, I smile. We always make up. Sweet I cant wait for the exit to memory lane. Memories, speed ing in memory lane, no red lights, showed straight green. Lovers and Friends. Keith Sweat said make it last forever so this love will not end. She’s rare,like magic, snaps fingers & im there. I hope people will one day call her by my last name. its comes from the heart, so it’s going to work. I love this girl out named her. I will promise to take her up the stairwell to heaven. And Carla it did start with a toothbrush more like a bath towel. i speak to that voice inside u. almost there, change will come. Change is hope so i have hope and hope u get it. take me to the tip-tops of heights, live in love. caught with my hand in the cookie Jar, but it was my loud route i took this time im more mature. i will take a beautiful planed root, trees, my honey bee. Inhale deep like a old man sleep, giving life. feel the love in ur lungs, so why not? Like a star, the best of me. Show me how ive grown, changed, became to be the person I am now. Same height, just right, angel wings, we will fly far. She ripped down my walls, opened me, awaken me, im taken. My girl from the south so she be cursoring fast. Played life’s game and got a bonus. This is a good life, in it deeper than water. Either, it’s the state of mind, hard to believe; so yall shocked. Punk drunk from her wine for her body is my bottle. In I go. So yall hate and now create beef, so I cook it and pop like grease. I have Miami strap to my back. Kimbo Slice a foo. Peace pipe, the end, first and last, The truth, honesty. Sexy tiger, her drive is Zune, I mean Zoom, gased, And im a hybrid . Blind I touch her, feel. Amp wattage. One word can describe her, Gasp for air, I write with Christ to tell in a note. Love at first site, Feeling my thru, Born, Déjà . You just said her name.

Born

Made of plastic

I love you
i want to be with u
i tell ur story every chance i get
i cant wat cause i know it will be the
Best
pure
everything
Happiness
but
why

How
wat did i do?
i care 4 you tell me i dont?
and at the end of it all
I love you
i want to be with u

always mad at me
and never telling me y
pushing me off
making me feel like shit
never answering my calls
cold shoulder
hurt?
VERY FUCKING HURT
but guess wat?
I love you
i want to be with u

I take it for wat it is
cause i want no1 else
but u?
Be with me
Say yes
didnt get that answer
i dont wanna hurt u?

u tell me that i dont care
but i have taken care of u
the Mr.Fix it
im easy
im close
y not
Right?

Kiss a guy
WTF?
ive seen u at ur highs
& lows
I love you
i want to be with u

Now ur mad at me
cause wat?
i did nothin Wrong
this yo-yo
i call my heart
is goin thru a lot
cause im there 4 u when u hurt
crying in my arms
but not there 4 me
deaths in my family
near death with a gun in my face
family
a $4000 hold at famu
the band
U
I love you
i want to be with u

i slow down
i was vibing
only focus on u
no other chicks
just 1
spot light
I love you
i want to be with u

is it worth it?
cant break a heart
of
plastic

Nim Foe Vs. Nympho

Nim Foe
Early in the morning
Afternoon
Midnight
We always have time
Make time
Never tired
Ill put that on my life
But we r rabbits
Start the play list

I whisper
Im goin to do better than my love to u

Cant talk in person because we ended up have sex
A drug
To each other
Hours
Silk more
She come a many of
Times
Kiss on her neck
My sean john unforgiveable in her
Nose
My tongue makes a beat
She sing
No1 else no she can
I eat her out of her Vickies
But keep it a secret
I vicks her
Rub her softly
Throw it back
Stress? I have a lower back
Massage with no hands….
Spoon feed me soup
With a sweet tooth
I drink her juice.. .
Feel me…WAIT!
Lights down low play on
Miracles in these tempos
Intro
Loving the mirror images of
Her in birthday suit
A Don
My lexus IS 300
Speeding
Road rash
Back is now fucked
Cause somebody wanna play
But its cool
Just will go deeper
Now I have teeth in my neck
3 piece
She on her stomach
Legs closes
Eyes close
Hands full of sheet
Too many sex for the year
In the first 3 hours
Can never have enough
Moments in love
Of eachother
Healing
Face to the ceiling
Switch
She zoom on the Yahama
Wheelie
Wall-e
Eve
Flowers in the garden
Capricorn
Leo
Only smiles
From Ear
2
Ear….

Enjoyed
I see my class is goin to start in
2 hours
Both now looking
Chinese
We connect
Kiss deep
Holding hands
Climax at the same time
no winner
never is
but
will there be?

Déjà Vu - My heart is Paranoid

Did I see u in my nightmares or was it a fairytale
I know I have experience this before
When, lets see
Now if I do my math right
This part was left
In…. my junior year in high school
Hmmm…..im a junior, it was a leap year
Okay Cool

So wat happen?
Best friend had ever thing in common with me
Saw her everyday, feelings grew
And my ship didn’t have a capt-ton
And we cross the line
Tried to be lovers & Friends
It sounded good when usher say it..
So u C-net, Drum Major
Dancer, Player, Marcher
It only made sense for us to like each other
We were parallel.
1 thing in the way…. My first love

Pooh, but piglet wanna to have more cake
Slowly I let that long distant become
An Tool of the incompetent which build monuments of nothingness
Something we both know by heart.
But she broke my heart
With the lies, the secrets
2/27
Things I brought, strawberries cheese cake
We ate? But u became late
And It was later for me
She loved her a bad(thug ass nigga) her X

Junior in college
Wat happens?
So this lil
c-net, I think nothing of it
we talk for the first time & she
already had info on me
she liked me…
so I get to kno her, on the outside she is
my
TpYe
In high skool a
drum major, dancing, marcher
lil red female just shows up in my life
so im Hype
ready to do this
but this all feels so like it
happen before?

We started talkin 9/27
Due to the likes we have
We have a mental bond
We know wat eachother feels
But this time I see my soul mate
Mates from heaven
And guess wat just like K
She has a p-word

Ive seen wat that can do and how it can change a future
She bright, with a lot goin for her
I see the answer
But she Is scared

Scared
To hurt me?
To be with me, she feels that im 2 good for her
To perfect?
So wat to do?
Im not selfish, I understand everything
So this is my calling
Help somebody with a problem bigger than me
Put my feelings aside to make a future same alive
Im doin this for her
Ive seen this show before
Different actors?
So how do I create change?
Wat did I learn from the first time?
How did I mature?
Do I be selfish & put myself first
Walk away will wats left of my loving heart
OR
Do this for her
A risk
Do wat I feel is right.
I understand & this is not to put her in a position
2 make her feel like she oles me a
Relationship.

The experience of déjà vu is usually accompanied by a compelling sense of familiarity, and also a sense of "eeriness," "strangeness," or "weirdness," The "previous" experience is most frequently attributed to a dream. But i lived this. This Recollection of events in my life. Every signpost in nature Said you belong to me. You're the flower I'm the rain. That X who ur compass sayz is north, but is not true. Nature always sides with the hidden flaw. If there is a possibility of several things going wrong, the one that will cause the most damage will be the one to go wrong. If there is a worse time for something to go wrong, it will happen then.. Every solution breeds new problems.. I feel like A stone's throw from Jerusalem. It's like singing in the wind Or writing on the surface of a lake. i write on. Tomorrow's rain will wash the stains away. It is never too late to be what you might have been. My heart understands what my head cannot yet conceive; I trust my heart. A ship in the harbor is safe, but that is not what ships are built for.

Overlap of life, Déjà vu

Genuinely happened in the past.
Now My Present...

Time Machine - Past welcome to heart break

tell me wat u think

They say you must look at ur past to see where u r going.

Every man's memory is his private literature. Memory... is the diary that we all carry about with us. It leaves behind no fossils, except perhaps in fiction. Memory is a complicated thing, a relative to truth, but not its twin. Winter must be cold for those with no warm memories. We change the memory of our past into a hope for our future. Sadness is always the legacy of the past; regrets are pains of the memory. Leftovers in their less visible form are called memories. Stored in the refrigerator of the mind and the cupboard of the heart. The future is not guaranteed. We all have our time machines. Some take us back, they're called memories. Some take us forward, they're called dreams. The heart that truly loves never forgets. Towards the door we never opened…..
Siting here with the radio playin
Lil corey my first time. Memories
They flash like streetlights on my
Road
Life.

First love,
Nicole….. Elementary school crush.
I watch from the background
She was miss popular
With fan club
I knew she wouldn’t notice me so i
Make sure I was back ground
But V-day was around the corner in the fifth grade
I listen 2 sweet lady
Learn the words
Wrote it and replace Sweet Lady with Sweet Ash….
Lee my bestfriend knew.
After middle school
6th grade she was lost in Miami
But in night school I ran into her
3 years later
Why?

So got her number and caked hard over a complete summer
Making ways to see eachother
She became my first love.
Ten grade, in love
Long distant, but still reachable.
I move from right to left
Dancing in love
A love before sex….
Both virgins & waiting to have sex in marriage
Respected by both parties.
i remember the love letters
Aaliyah 4 pages long
roses i gave u
ate u
i dont hate u
A year later…

Arguments once a month
Pictures of our names
Favorite characters
Pooh, mickey, tweedy.
Aaliyah….
Happy,

Drum Major
Leading a Band
In love

Not see anybody but my girl
Morgan, man
But stories came back to me

Pissed me on
Open my mouth
Sitting on who lap?
& I know the nigga?
Cool…. Push her away
Pull into Ms.K arms
The foe, the 1 she hated
Got a lot & very close and
She was near me everyday
Cnet-Drum Major
Liked by my mom
And when we broke up I ended with
k/kissing


life was forever change
the girl I was in love with
girl who was mine
the person who made me who I am
suppose to be with me at Famu
by myside.
K gets the P word
& I tried to talk to Nicole about it
& guy that like her in the middle of our love
Is her baby dad..dee?
Life
Nature of the beast
Once in a place that only lover go
Long cakin
Full of smiles
Laughter
Secrets shared
Tears shared
Feelings strengthen
Hope, faith, happiness
Go to church with u
Being with 1 once out of the week
1 year anniversary I called u the
K name of ur date
Fuck up?
Down hill from there
A kiss on another girl
The name I call u
Never leave the person u love
4 the person like
The person will leave you person they love
And it happen
A hard lesson to learn at 16-17
I will never leave u tattoo on my heart
R Kelly that we loved
I see what happen
I was head drum major
Saxophone sect leader
In famu
In the marching 100
With a house

A car
But not happy?
But I always pushed on
Keep going
Sorry for changing your future….

Every man's memory is his private literature. Memory... is the diary that we all carry about with us. It leaves behind no fossils, except perhaps in fiction. Memory is a complicated thing, a relative to truth, but not its twin. Winter must be cold for those with no warm memories. We change the memory of our past into a hope for our future. Sadness is always the legacy of the past; regrets are pains of the memory. Leftovers in their less visible form are called memories. Stored in the refrigerator of the mind and the cupboard of the heart. The future is not guaranteed. We all have our time machines. Some take us back, they're called memories. Some take us forward, they're called dreams. The heart that truly loves never forgets. Towards the door we never opened…..
Heaven only knows

Dwell

dwell
well
full of tears
i come here
time after time
all throughout the year
pending

i bring a gift
ur level seem a lil low again
& i just happen to have gotten my heart
broken
but ill tell u the recital,
and lets not forecast the ending.

love is intermingle
in the mix
yea, its here
so we, me, & her
have a chemical bond
we are a match
a Fucking mirror.


for the things we share
its makes me proud
to know we can breathe the same air
i think of the what if?
what if we didn't meet?
that makes me want her more
we want eachother

<<<>>>

I'm selfish
I AM
why so serious?
cause i care
4 her
I DO.
i saw her in her ups and
Downs.


<<<<&>>>>>
i saw thru her
str8.....,
right into her
soul.

she makes my divine spark
spirit
happy,
and we feel for each other
consistently
typically
naturally.
nature answer my question
She gave me myself
in a female form.

but can i have her?
i cant have her?
why show me heaven and not let me live
there?

i slap on a smile to keep the
nose's from smelling
the hurt & sadness
but i manage to see
the greatness
the pure
within her.

Alive, She who lives
the meaning that so deep
so I'm stuck
YEP Stuck

a wet pillow
and empty thing
of cookie dough
ice cream
Y?

i see and had in my hand
everything i ever needed
or wanted
from a woman
&&
its not wat i need right now.

so i sit here and look
into 2 my heart
i see a mirror
with a woman
looking at her self
crying
eyes a well
dwell....

i love/hate you

Zion, aborted

Can u handle this life
a life
i think u should know about this
story
i will not let you go

i tell your words
ur life
ill sing your song
the pain of it

a world u enter
no choice but the
moment
you blind
no eyes
in darkness
u fear nobody
not even god

softly u live
closer
higher than any of us
nothing in the world matter
a King
maybe prince of heaven

the blood that runs thru me
is share
in u
i keep ur mother
happy as god's child
on x-mas
so you will be healthy

all i wanted was you in my life
butterflies
i ask heaven to send angels to watch over u
with faith, u cant have fear
they cancel each other
u fear nobody
not even god

handle it
i know
ill play my part the best
i listen to ur heart beat, full of love
life because of us
her & i

lights flash
a black world turns
pink
walls?
its an intruder
he screams
he crys
he speak in a language only angels
understand

they take him home
it was not his time
the world wasnt really
his life was 2 mature
way ahead of its time
energy in a pure form

sad i never was able to see u
and never see me
ur life needed a chance
so wat do u do?
follow ur heart or head?

life 4 u is only about to begin
love u
joy
a heaven
peace
in Zion

later

Escape

May i say
as drag myself along
pray
crawling thur life
i want to walk but i have yet to have learned
matriculate

I'm naturally bashful
Me humble,
awaiting u
i watch u stroll up to my bedroom.
i tell myself I'm goin to change, I'm getting out of the game
but i end up right here.

pour liq for my dismembered hearts of the past
i see her starting to change on me like the seasons
the relationship we have is camouflaged
No gossip
no1 knows.....
no 1 eyes see

she's my bee
& I'm her honey
her babe
Baby
but I'm losing u
so I'm lost 2

i want Ur touch
those X's of urs fucked up
& lil Ole me
Lucked up
i am here to wipe Ur tears
to clean up the mess made from others
fix wat was rip
can u do the same 4 me?

i hope u never forget me
the last guys trash and now my queen
talk to me
let me show u other sides to me
so slide wit me
swing, seesaw
love

we r connected,
linked
u & i were looking for it
but we are in it.
its written on my mirror from Ur finger tips
and i wrote it on ur lips

she not like the others
she ask me for nothing
so i give her everything
therapy
she lets me in

the darkness in my life is
gone
thanks for light wit u halo
Destiny
its save to trust again
free the love in Ur heart
as i did

this time she found me....

My last words un heard

Sometimes, when one person is missing,
the whole world seems depopulated.
My mother ran my life but u were the tempo
No more pain,
I know u are looking out 4 me on the other side
Looking down on me,
He wanted u
so he send for u
Ur job is done here on earth
Time to retire to a better life,
In heaven
So ill lead the marching band as
Drummajor in the parade of your life.
Celebrating u.
Playing angel songs.
U woke up out of a contradicting life to live your dream.
Took from bottom to top
Ur next in to experience the truth.
Fly higher than all the others angels for me within the land of forever
Peace
Love
& happiness.
Perhaps they are not stars,
But rather openings in heaven
Where the love of our
Lost ones
Pours through & shines down
Upon us to let us know
They are happy.
I see you shining at night 7 during the day.
U now live in a level heaven
America is unlevel in this world
Thank you for the lessons and teaching.
U blessed me with your wisdom
Now u live in life’s love freedom.
I know u don’t want me to so say good bye so ill
Say
See u later
Mrs. Gloria Smith.
The people we love are stolen from us,
The way to have them live on is to never stop
Loving them.

The Real Loss

Tell me wat u think*

I look up to u
bite my lip
take in deep pull of
Oxygen.....
Pray
humble myself
i love her like she loves me

Help me
Save me
The Real loss
only occurs
when you
lose something
that you
love
more than
your
self

it happen again
Ur son was lead on
like oreos with no milk
lead on
in a different way
I never achieved wat was assumed I did
why ?
How? why
explain

Feed me with wisdom
Free me
i want to eat
love foods
i want the taste of happiness
Apples
cinn-a-Mon
Warm Honey
Lemon sweet hot teas
The nectar of life
essence
Colour
of red......

But Why her too?
Shocked, i sit,
Mom Why?
u gave birth
i was born
but u dont share the feelin
a sweet
soul mate
perfect for me
So bright but So dark

this is my life
bout that life?
this economic recession
knife?
Space
sad
Full Moon Tears.

The Real loss
only occurs
when you
lose something
that you
love
more than
your
self

Time for change

Action “ 2008 =Year of The Shone”

Legs spread eagle, Can’t believe it’s not butter. Thinking no-one else knows but yes, guys talk; good and bad. Hoe-ish activites but somehow the shone feels that she should be treat as a House Wife. I know, it was funny when I heard it too. See, Shones have a smaller brain, and due to recent studies by Shonelogies their brains are 45% small than that of ur average female. I’m sorry but I refuse to just let these shones walk around thinking that they are the ripest shit on earth and should be put on a pedestal. Sure I don’t mind handing u an award “MVP Shone” and maybe a blood test but that’s about all u can get from me. I could devastate my time and convey a message on how to carry urself but Shones seem to only find it humorous. What I find funny is ur name on top of the Easy Fuck list. I don’t know, maybe it’s the new style of 2008. Shones have been around since day 1, but it wasn’t until 2005 that shones developed vocal cords and began communicating words “lies” & filling victim’s heads with hopes and dreams. At first dudes ate it up like the dollar menu but light has been shown and it’s BRIGHT. In the early day, Shones didn’t live very long. Aids nearly wipe them clean out. The oldest shones still living is Lil Kim and Karrine Steffans( Supa Head). Shonehood seems to be at an all time high. Now with meds for STD’s, shoning is at its Peak. Shones now feel that because they have numbers, they can just shone their way to the top and give every man that comes their way Syphilis. Some are out there willing to take the “L” (like suicide bombers in the middle east)and are just waiting to catch a brother slipping. (R.I.P to the fallen brothers who were not informed) Late 2007They found the weakness. The males EYES. Cutting the Short Shorts, and skirts to make them shorter, Getting tattoos on those C cups and thighs, Wearing tights so the print can be soon, long store brought hair, the list goes on. I’ve been in the shone nest. Shone even tried to take it but I knew better. Shone got trazed. It’s a shone world out there and they are learning. Shones may not be able to smell nor taste but Shones will be shones no matter how wat. Beware of the shone and the magical; super-shone-natural powers they hold. I’m bout that life but I’m not bout that shone life. But shones r good 4 that quickie.

Murder

After the smoke cleared, there where 3 bodies. 2 with the hearts cut out and 1 with the mouth completely removed. What happen? Why this? Who’s 2 blame? There’s not much I can say. I will speak my truth. When I was handed the secret the underlined the truth I enter a state of Emotional shock. Naw Mans were repeated out of my mouth losing tone after each 1. The look on my face was the same 1 that i had on that day when I learned god brother/ best friend was gunned down. I’m good for keeping things in so I did. This heart break was different because it was personally. I when into this relationship cautious, following the rules of the game, moving slowly looking around each corner. Space was giving, and the room was there. There were no reasons for the word lie to be stamp on any of the sentences. I knew that we were different in almost every possible way know to man. Opposites. So I opening my mind and travel the new road to new lands in the relationship world. I took my time to let everything craft itself into something loving. All of her statements made me want to try and break out of my shell. Heart racing, nervousness takes over cause heart break is something that no 1 forgets. Theirs is no need for me to go into extreme detail. How I feel right now, things could have been worst and I’m thankful it wasn’t. At the end of the day I did give her a physical part of me that no other saw. A side to which no else had. To me it meant the world and made me stand out more. I choose wisely and gave her my gift. All I ever wanted was to be more then her last which turn out to be first, when u enter the condition of long distant, you take a risk because you are now thinking long term. So I made plans to keep myself faithful and always on truth. I don’t know what will happen but I hope what happens, happens for the best. This hurt is something that can not go away just because I let u get replaced. You wanted me to put your name on me so I did.

That’s 2 down for me and we are only half way thru the year 2008.

Untitled Status, Feelings Unwritten

I sit silent with a mouth open words unable 2 form
I wish these tears would flow up back to there home
Another bad day.
Another 1 of those
World against me and I figure u could help me fight back
But u didn’t have my back
You was my trusted foe
Feeling I though we shared
Times we spent together
i considerate 2 be great
heartbreak is always on time
& for once love was late
passions shared between we, us you and I
and also a small lil problem,
it was shared with another guy
I was not first which makes me last
You were my angel with so much class
im miserable
This feeling that so typical
So normal for me
When there’s a heart to break god seems to pick
Me
From the tree.
Love is forbidden
And this adam will not have an eve
But this is my eve before the break of my heart
I hope this is a lie
This relationship came from this word “Like” form the start
Once again my emotions were blind
So I ask this question in paused time,
What happens when the truth isn’t good enough?
When my strawberries have a taste of lime
I guess love is a feeling I need but just not now.
Bitch, fucks, asses and Shit
My mouth still open
Silently as I sit.

UFO

UFO

We ask questions, she give you no reactions,
will this world fail? she give no answers
the puzzle is rhetorical
Human, plague, you are your own cancer
china takes home gold
and the economy slows
ends are not met
3rd world blind with eyes around the corner
being stocked
off with the heads,
guillotine
the country bleeds wounded in bed

Nooses rap around umbilical cords of new borns
future dies before the eyes are formed
it cost 3 cent to print franklins
so ponder ur minds on that 1
the sunsets in other worlds
Catch up in another green earth
but i follow the wise
open 4 ur trust
she open some eyes
but i enter in sections
playing Facebook’s note
Hero

she is so round and about
Now u tube and glue
Urself 2 television and eat it all up
mouths open like babies
fed this bullshit black on black crimes
First 48 hour realities
there’s always an equal amount of hate
as great
stuffed, tight
i call koolaid purple when it taste
grape

Don’t stay trap in a maze
for i am……amaz-in
Come with she, take off and live in the sky's worlds away.
live the good life
trying to built like Lego, let go of shit’s e-go.
And remember Sin is spell with an N like No
&& be-come so gone like post cards
No more darks ended up behind colour, sightless bars
but u chase ur shadow while i case my intelligent
please dont chuck hollows
At the first negro president,
U will live with words in Karma
dont stop her like an ,
comma

Smile of the grammys
Os and bricks
u feel her like a new tooth
detoxed ur mothers body for earth's sick
laced up like j's
but dont jump man
the balls in ur court
shoot free throws or slam
Please no Nike Drunks
but these floor seats are wat counts
Most!

moist fore heads remember rained out events
but the rainbow's in sight
So take flight
lands in thick puff's of white
Polar
Roar
Solar
by far
galaxies see u as just another star
someone out there has place a wish on ur head
so shine bright,
dont let these days become night

Now she lift me on her wings made from elves and angels
take me away with every breathe on life
in line’s straights an angles
get me on my toes like superman
dont stay down 4ever
i too can be in my lord’s family photo
no matter what they forecast the weather
these words line u up like a fisherman
so don’t swim, don’t go
hope u have a fall back
like corn bread at thanksgiving
left over black friday's store doors closed.

U read what i write and ur brain hears it in Cursive
but i shock u like games of operations
with Sentences bold, and margin right
these crystal that sparkle in my eyes From her light
u don’t like being whipped
so throw cream at me
as she grab me from the clouds
i pitch 4 middles 2 those
fingers and toes
dont trip on the slippery decks
stay on deck with stacks

If u want me
you find me
but i blaze
burn colors
u smell them
taste sound
eat hymns
thunder clouds move in,
i rain wisdom and knowledge
i start worlds that i never see grow
Noah? i mean no1! knows me betta

So wat if god is a lady
so no questions sean, no ifs ands or maybes.
But I make be-lief
And try to be brief
but ur a mother focker
u have yet to meet the fam-lee
so life flows too deep and takes me under
be4 i die she pull me out and bring me back.
Saved from the murder!

But i dont want “it”
in hind, seek, and go
they want me but i have no where to run
So they try an find her a home
In hell,
Area 51
so i run to you....Heaven's only watcher
Time gets high but is never up,
so I don’t border

We make it official
stars fall from nights as she past them
light years away
But I pray
4 her to not be shot down
She make it half complete & the other half of the way

So i stop wishing cause i got it.
what i wanted
a gift rapped with sexy hips
on dec 25th
its not nsyc
i will pop tonite
so we elevate and get straight
float off.....
body prob

Give me better days with heavens
and no ghettos.
my heart was aired out like a bag
by heros and foes
let me out of my cage

A beatuiful alien
creator of Alien-kind
the giver of love in this life
Spiderman
i French kiss my Wife
Miss Mary Jane
Can-i-Bliss?
life is 2 short 2 nurse my miseries,
i must hurry across da lowlands
White with snow covered mens and trees
so i spend more time on da mountaintops.


Mountains kiss Heaven.
so she takes off
Burns the atmosphere
glide thro the clouds on a clear morning sky
in a loving hearts smiling eyes
a child holding a father hand
cryies
ask questions?
Whats that, that thing in the sky?
Who, when, what, where, & why’s?
not Far but cant be a star.
Must be something unknown
Secretive
Flying
mysterious object
giving
love
hope
An
U. F. O!

Smoke

Warning: U Will have to read this completely in order to understand.

Smoke
free flowing.
having no rules, no laws,
able to fill a complete room
inhale
a wall, unable to see thru
blocks light,
cuts off oxygen & takes life
healing powers
emotional & mental

Invisible particles of combustion. All the good and greatest blown apart. Liquid particulates and gases formed from what I once that. My perfect lil world now lays in waste. I burn all my hate, anger and adversity. Light candles to cheer up my mood. Oil lamps to light my way. I sit and watch the freeness of Smoke. As a rule, adversity reveals genius and prosperity hides it. But life has no rules and neither does this smokey gas, Having no rules, no laws. I travel like a comet wild
On which some distant sun had smiled,
And from my orbit thus beguiled
With a long tail of smoke.
And smirk with high-born dames who doubt:
Thy flames are quenched, thy fires are out,
And sinking into smoke.
It were, when poets droop in fame,
To see smoke brighten into flame,
Than flames sink into smoke."
The odor vile, the noisome taint
Of horrid, stale smoke
Yet lingers

Lingering bullshit that fucked up my life. How can I smile with this depression on my face like a dimple? It was only my first job. It was only my only income. It’s just a black school in Tallahassee that seems to never answer the phone when u need them to. The aid I need seems to not be on its way this year due to the humans that are on vacation with my aid money but it’s cool. Cool runnings in winter. Exhale hot air that meets the cold oxygen to form smoke. Its only life. Thick, hard to inhale this dark air. Life seems darker then the black side of the moon. I wanna just jook this off and dance on this thin ass ice.
The stars are constantly shining, but often I do not see them until the dark hours. It is during my darkest moments that I must focus to see the light. I want this smoke to clear, wonder what will be left after it settles. Adversity is sometimes hard upon a me; but for one man who can stand prosperity, there are a hundred that will stand adversity. I can’t even bring myself to tear up and cry from the tear gas of smoke. If I traveled to the end of the rainbow as Dame Fortune did intend, Murphy would be there to tell me the pot's at the other end. What a law that was written by Mr. Murphy. (Ironic, i know)
If we study the lives of great men and women carefully and unemotionally we find that, invariably, greatness was developed, tested and revealed through the darker periods of their lives. One of the largest tributaries of the RIVER OF GREATNESS is always the STREAM OF ADVERSITY. Every path has its puddle. But its hard to see them during the fog of adversity. Smoke, Conceive true deception multiplied a million fold. Visualize the yin and yang in a battle so intense that we get em confused. I Take this life dead serious while others entertain it. I let this smoke take my body, My stomach can't digest it even when I bless it. My issues need to be addressed like envelopes and return back in the smokey world of hell it came from. Sores that was open wounds eventually turn to scabs. I will sacrifice every breath I breathe for my love of life. Looking at the canvas of life, compromise my art with this adverse haze that screens out my hope. I search for loopholes in this smoke, but I cant with this Single minded mentality. Adversity runnin up on me like it misses me. Things turn out best for those who make the best of the way things turn out. Tragedy, sadness, loneliness and despair taught me that life is really a beautiful thing; if it wasn't I wouldn't be able to recognize that anything was wrong. The harder I fall, the higher I will bounce. The way I bounce back from this will show myself my true character. Notice I said myself and not you for I can careless about what the world thinks of me.

Smoke
free flowing.
having no rules, following no laws,
able to fill the largest of all spaces
Exhale
a wall, unable to see thru
blocks out every beam of all light,
cuts off oxygen & takes all life
healing powers

Fate, is an excuse for why I end up where I am! MY 'Actions' predetermine MY Destiny; MY 'Reactions' seal that fate. God brings men into deep waters not to drown them, but to cleanse them. Trying my best to never let my head hang down. Never give up and sit down and grieve. I look 2 Find another way. And I make sure to not pray when it rains, if I don't pray when the sun shines. God left the world unfinished for man to work his skill upon. He left the electricity still in the cloud, the oil still in the earth. How often I look upon God as my last and feeblest resource! I go to Him because I have nowhere else to go. And then I learn that the storms of life have driven me, not upon the rocks, but into the desired haven. I have no right to ask when sorrow comes, Why did this happen to me? Unless I ask the same question for every moment of happiness that comes my way. The good things of prosperity are to be wished; but the good things that belong to adversity are to be admired. So I do, I admire the freeness of your ways. Having no edges, but waves of slow moving pale skin. Smoke, in this beautiful nightmare. The bravest sight in the world is to see a great man struggling against adversity. I Struggle hard with life, what keeps me going, what keeps me fighting? The fear of failure. Adversity causes some men to break, others to break records. At the rate that I’m ahead my life should be a sport in the Olympics. Skywriting this only reward. The reward of my suffering is this experience. Love is a smoke made with the fume of sighs. Being purged, a fire sparkling in lovers eyes. Being vexed, a sea nourished with lovers tears. What is it else? A madness most discreet, a choking gall and a preserving sweet.

So Sean Felix Rahmings what do u wanna be when u grow up?
Answer: Alive! Candy apple of my eye. Death's Field is the mirror which allows us the knowledge of the world we living in. I know my name is written in his book but I hope my page is some where between the last page and back cover. Life really does feel like its under. Its hard to look at the world from below. Looking up at the world. Feels like a heart beat with out any bass. So I breathe deep and blow a hole thru this adversity,
Smoke

Smoke
Freed, flowing
Having no rules, no laws,
Able to fill time
Inhale
a divider, unable to distinguish, peer thru
Blocks light,
Cuts off oxygen & takes life
Therapeutic powers
Emotionality & mentality
Smoke from the burned leaf of my life’s
Adversity

Rain

Comment if u like it.

Clouds come floating into my life, no longer to carry rain or usher storm, but to add color to my sunset sky. She’s coming back to visit I see. Sigh, I did it again but ill take the beating. If you have the courage to love you must have courage to suffer.
1 in the morning and I hear the sounds of it. It flows from the heavens down to me. a life line from god. My heart uses the drops as a stair case to get from one world to another.
I welcome her coming because she gives me a needed element for my own self growth.
The smell of her coming is always the same. Never to heavy nor light.
Light fills the air and turns night into day for only a second.
I listen closely to hear the words from her voice.
Wash away the bad, the wrongs, the hate, the broken heart. But leave the memories.
Trillions of her sisters fall in groups of 20. Colder breeze then normal, I guess she knows and feels my pain. Scary at times…the times when she raises her voice.
I understand her points and teachings.
Clouds grow thicker more darker.
The wild speed picks up, she’s upset.
Yea I cant lie, I fucked up! Forgive me, I sinned but don’t forgive me so that u can feel better, but forgive me so that way I can prove myself to u. I am a being of Heaven and Earth, of thunder and lightning, of rain and wind, of the galaxies please don’t hurt me. She runs her fingers over my body. The wind whisper in my ear” You pray for rain, you gotta deal with the mud too. That's a part of it.” I opened my eyes
And looked up at the rain, at her, in her eyes
And it dripped in my head
And flowed into my brain,
And all that I hear as I lie in my bed
Why do none of her drops fall in my eye? Why do she want me to see?
she step very softly,
she walks very slow,
then a loud crack.
Neon sky’s
I yell to her, strike me down, take my life, call me home, give me peace.
Tears slowly form, and run down my pain sighted eyes
Tears flow rivers on my cheeks.
im Ashamed of what I've become, Ashamed of my life
stuck and confused
not knowing if the things she say are true
i trust her with my life
i trust her with my heart
I walk outside in her to let her know that I will change.
she laugh as she slowly rip the heavens apart
Feeling the rip long after the tear
i look at my life, and realize it's not fair
a young black soul
standing alone
looking lost
Looking for help with no hero in sight
feeling cold
no arms to keep me warm
rising up into her quiet storm
Tears fall in my heart like the rain on the town.
She told me in a sweet young mature voice, Don't be sad it's over, be glad it happened. No female is worth your tears, and when you find the one that is, she wont make you cry! Remember that there's one true love for you to have and hold. It may not be the best but it is the one you deserve. Do not go where the path may lead but go where there is no path and leave a trail. Don't be stuck on the past be ready for what lies ahead!!!!! You cannot escape your past, but you can make your future.
I take it all in. right now my life needs balance. i will never find myself until i face the truth.
Dropplets
Splash over my tear stained eyes
Hiding
All of my silent cries
Thunder
Muffles my peircing screams
My heart
Who will just
Let me see
past the shadows
Of the pouring tears? Who may stop my pain?
My question are answered by a Splatter, plop
Drip, Drop, Splatter sound from her
Laying on the soft moist grass.
The world is painted, the way a drop of water rolls off a wet leaf after a rain is so beautiful. Divine liquid runs down stems and vines. Still falls the rain - dark as the world of man, black as our loss, blind as the nineteen hundred and forty nails upon the Cross
In my secret garden
I plant my seeds each year
The seeds grow into love
The buds starts show
a flower Starts to come out
Everything grows so beautiful
Especially my evergreen tree of forbidden Fruit
My secret garden
My only sanctuary.
the sky’s symphony
The sound of the rain,
of her
Peaceful and melancholic
the rainbow
That comes out in the sky after the rain
It is almost like in a dream
Beautiful and romantic
Beautiful to my naked eyes
All night the sound had
this quite fall, persistent rain.
of the tiredness, the fatuousness, the semi-
lust of intentional indifference.
Be wet with a decent happiness.
The clouds clear and the morning lights the way.
This storm is over now. she's passed, no more to be taught
no more sounds, no more tornado winds,
no more rain.


Like rain, love should be gentle enough to nourish a man's growth without destroying the roots. Let not the hours pass by in the dark. I will Kindle the lamp of love on my heart with my life. Thousands of candles can be lighted by one candle and the life of the candle will not be shortened. Happiness never decreases by being shared. Love is not a physical force of any nature, but one of deep, tender compassion ready to give all should another demand it. When you really love someone you accept all, You never give up and never let go, You love that person unconditionally, You love them completely. When in love, be fair and honest, even when it hurts.

Emtpy

Emtpy:

Why is my existence so perfect with dark places?
And why do I no longer care?
I talk to God but the sky is empty.
what is it about the shadows that draw my spirit in?
The damnation?
The isolated darkness?
I would give up my Stygian soul to know.
String orchestras plays sad sounds……
violins, viola, cellos, string basses fill the air with moods of blue.
Memory haunt my vacant days Sleepless nights,
dreadful dreams, are haunting me.

Panic
rage
Runs through my body
the devil is trying to get in.
Prayer is my weapon;

faith gives me peace of mind, to stop the demons from taking over.
Depression knocks me down,
Grace picks me back up.
The pastor told me to be strong,
but the lord lays mercy on my soul,
wishing life was a bowl of cherries.

Why is my existence so perfect with dark places?

And why do I no longer care?
I talk to God but the sky is empty.
What is it about the shadows that draw my spirit in?
The damnation?
The isolated darkness?
I would give up my Stygian soul to know.
My Heart beat races at formula 1.
I took a deep breath and listened to the old voice of my heart.

I am.

I am.

I am.

The sound I hear from it.
It don’t cost much to pay attention to me.
gotta straight up like fresh printed dollar with
str8 up posture,
she was my chick
but

she flew away with my heart.
im a rooster,
cant leave the hen house.
These poor hungry sad days I want to turn in to thanksgiving,
but there are more birds in this thanksgiving.

Take me for who I am and love me for wat im not.
I used to adapt to people,
but I learned that it’s a lot better to b myself from jump.
12 dozen of orchids grow thru the cracks of concrete.
A lot of the things I say will go over ur head but u can catch them before
they hit the ground.
My grips broke and I fell from my love high.

Objects of simplex affection,
expressions that still show disappointment.
I don’t mistake heartbreak for phobia,
Whereas fear is a gift from God to be used for self-preservation.
Strategically placed in my life,

she one of many opposers of my positive existence.
Innuendo, glorification with my pain.
dead spirits life in my lines.
It’s easy to get locked up and die.
My veins are filled with the blood of a man.

A rush of blood to the head plays out the speakers. Man is immortal; therefore he must die endlessly. For life is a creative idea; it can only find itself in changing forms. I change more each day. Live till to-morrow, will have pass'd away. My sad 2morrows. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of withering, of tarnishing. Life is pleasant, Death is peaceful, it’s the transition that's troublesome. The absence of love is the most abject pain. Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. my heart once Filled with angels, lie empty but I want these angels to get up and clap at this notes closing credits. containing nothing; having none of the usual or appropriate contents, vacant; unoccupied, without force, effect, or significance; hollow; meaningless, containing no elements; null; void. sticky in the jar but no honey inside, my heart….Empty.

Blank Page...... Nothingness inside of me

Life on pause…. With a cause. Bees, ants, worms, fish, cycle of life. My Life is a tragedy when seen in close-up. Many feelings that leave me in wonder. So I ponder about Vs and Es some Ls and of course you. But I cant get beyond the feeling of nothingness. Thanks, now my well is dry. I change my tone from that of a bright spring day to 1 much more and lil hue & gray, overcasted and badly polished. I gave you my mind and peace from it. But from you I gain wasted time and wasted love. Sometimes the heart see’s what eyes don’t. Invisible, I only used 1 when I should’ve used both. This story is boned with ideas, nerved and blooded with emotions, all held together by the delicate, tough skin of words, verbs. My brain a book to put my mind on paper, my heart an encyclopedia to put my love in my very on scriptures. Sentences to leave your brain bouncing around. And yes theres a part 2. I sit on aces.......this is curtains, I write on the flow of ur heart beat. My heart is broken beyond foreseeable repair, Understand me and what was done. Now I’m empty, and I’ve lost my sense of love. How 2 love again? Traveled into the realms of bonds so tight, I went raw and she burn the roof of my mouth and left my heart well-done. I have a problem on my hands like a six finger. Third eye blind cant see my visions, This feels like central park without grass, scared heartless like the tin man from the world of Emerald OZ. But more like a WiZ without happiness and singing. I willed her my heart be4 I die, its my most prize thing. I co sign my love with my only guardian angel, For it was not into her ear i whispered, but her heart. It was not my lips she kissed, but my soul. Now it feels like shooting in the dark, I wish I could run thru the streets but this pain forces me to walk thru the sand. Rose paddles fall from broken truths, type for ur life with a blank keyboard. Papaya, milk and honey fed to me by her false lips with no worry of my feelins. Playin Jumanji with my soul. Now my soul cry’s sugary tears. High notes like dames in operas.... I watch my soul sit in pain but not for long. This was the second time, this time my Soul left with his head up high and shaking his head in disbelieve. Couldn’t take the abuse anymore. Now im being sued Charged With Assault & battery with lode acts, emotion Domestic Violence. My Life is a tragedy when seen in close-up. I didn’t know she would break me….well my only heart. I the defendant enter a plea of no contest 2 these charges. But my judge Karma delivered a soft sentence. Grind away rust on my heart from teary eyes that cried out for love, from that 1 who didn’t care about me. Trying to keep my heart out the light like film but I still develop sadness within. Emotional fingers, typing away feelings that my mouth cant say. Its funny, small people really have a lot to say and have the best conversing skills. Cotton candy, strawberries shortcake dreams left banged up and bruised. She cut me like a cord… umbilici, lifeless, heartless, soulless I dwell on the pain. I treated her like she was the main feature, the great presentation, trailer seem right in my third eye. She acted up? And made my love into a sad movie. she was a bully and fucked my heart up. I was E-class out, yea she had me whipped, but I later learned We were not a match like orange and pink. I Wished that the sheet of anguish installed as my cover,Would hide me from the pity that people bestowed onto me. clichés, encouragements of nothing and Words of consolement. The seeds of these lies rooted so deeply they've cracked the foundation of what we loved and shared. I'm left surrounded in darkness but i refuse to be swallowed by it. Love, Invisible to the eye, Obvious to the touch. Philosophical logic of Sean

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From Me 2 you, You know who you is, I aRe. Evolution, I watch before my eyes this friendship evolve. Baby caterpillar slowly becoming a Butterfly. Spoken word,

From Me 2 u.

Time spent, social appointment, engagement, occasion arranged beforehand kinda last minute but 1 of the many best minutes shared between us.

From me to u.

Take a trip to c.b. smith, and chill under a rock. (Yep a Rock) wettest sounds During a thunder storm, using my body as a shield to protect her from the elements. Liquid love, A long convo about her love, her goals, her future. Its always a plus, That she gives me. Remembering randomly The Little rascals letter ……. Dear Darla, I hate ur stinking guts, u make me vomit. Said identical, simultaneously. Cute laughter fills the stormy air. Giggling like piglets, Guess this was our lil Lady and the tramp moment. Wish I could have push her on the swing.

From me 2 u

Sneak me in, round 2 but this time im a lil drenched, but it didn’t matter. So I chill on her bed and watch youtube clips until the gratuitous wi-fi when bad. Wonder why that happen?

From me to you.

Now we have to do something and entertain ourselves. Blue walls, artwork everywhere. Dried roses, frozen in time. What dead is good? Blossoms that have been dehydrated, dried and preserved in their natural shape and color. Her love…define by a flower, something I notice from day 1.

From me to u

Sure have a lot of things purple. fragmented by angry red, then diluted by moody blue. Maybe Purple for the evening. Yellow? Naw….mellow, chill, calm, placid, living in tranquil serene scenes portrayed like Kodiak moments left to be ultimately photoshopped by a higher being. The big man himself. Picture perfect Mona Lisa,

From me 2 u

Listen to music, Neo-soul. I tried to match your breathing Beating my little heart against yours, a line from 1 of her favorite songs. Her “joy” from Miss Michele plays thru the Bose speakers just loud enough for only us to her. Holding the strings of vibes

From me to u

I like what I see & love what my ears pick up. Melodious emotions mesmerized even the Gods. Melodies transforming me, your audience. Poetry that u shared. Now I must give back.

From me 2 u.

Playing in a garden of words, amusing actions, swallow by my ears, ingestion by my mind. read me poetry, read more to me. A baby wanting more milk, is the face I have on. Her lyrics aim to please, radiates with verb, idyllic word, purity, subtlety, sexy both singular and plural, Laced with frilly rhymes, typos and all, read between the lines. Pillars of golden blocks, bold size 12 font Times roman, Her beautiful scriptures.

From her to me

After reading to me wat her love is. I was left in shock. It was sweeter then splenda , almost most sweeter then me and my views on wat love is. Soft cotton lips that’s these words drift from. Glide soft thru me and play on my eternal harp. Talented, hands that should be insured. Female Bob Da Builder, building me a new heart. Rubbish feeling of hitting Rock bottom and I thank you for what you know not. Things, and feelings you gave and show me. Manifests in salvation- a revelation. Mission Complete

From me 2 you

Dreaming is never bad, paper planes that glide thru my stomach along with the other insects and albino butterflies. im amazed at her lengths for her love, by her love. A star for us to see, candle lit dinners, picnics on the beach, watching the sunrise, u pick we pick strawberries of are own, full body massages. Stimulating, strokes. Examples of a stunning extravagantly emotional mind. Romanesque. Melodramatic romance. A moonlit ride, A childish drawing of a stick girl and guy holding hands drawn with crayons. Lovely kiss on the forehead. Ill give u a romantic idea of my own. Trace out a grant heart in the sand on the shore, sit inside of it and watch the sunset. I Never Want To Say Adeiu, A moment to be put in a glass bottle.Dreaming to get my dreams undreamed. Its my sweet dream.

Send from me to you

American eagle banded, and a great buy. Best buy. come dance this story with me, Dance in the moon light with all the stars in sight, Then dance with fire every dark hour. Vanilla, chocolate and cinnamon Selfless beauty unimaginable. land of milk and honey, of natural beauty. Key of the Nile. Ankh, ☥. ACME feelings, not boo-be trapped. 8 ball corner pocket, Fate? I don’t kno, ask the 8 ball. Answer: Do pigs have wings? Hmmmmmmmm… if I tattoo wings on them would it count? Im goin to make this work in my favor. Innocence is pictured differently through many eyes, Blinded by the sheer beauty of it.
From Cars to L.A.......Cs and Rs A vowel here and there but wat about this 12th letter…..el?This didn’t start with a toothbrush but more so an "add me" on facebook. i can't translate my vision of the world but I can put into words my heart’s itinerary. I write the codes, you will decipher.

From Sean too U.

Eyelid Dancer, Eyes Singing, Word from Mouth......A Choice.

The dream of peace and happiness, the warmth and love. Eyelid Dancer.i've studied your face and your eyes that sparkle. Just because I'm quiet/shy, Doesn't mean that's me, I Still love to have conversations, I Still want to share thoughts and i will. This is like a mirage out in the desert. The sand.....it the time running a way in life. There are decision always to be made. Thinking to always be done. Choices. They can make or break u. I have the choice 2 spend the rest of my pre-life or before life with anyone that Sean wants. My whole life ive been making decisions. Some great other's.....well they're lessons learned. but u learn how 2 make better ones. this past of choices will lead you up to that big 1. The biggest and most important 1. The one that can change lives and make futures/ change it. The choice that can change lives forgood. Written in stone time. That Sand now turn into stone. The choice is mine and only mine to make. i choose my happiness, my love, my soulmate. Out of billions there's 1. when this moment happen's Sean earth will stand still, and my heart will be switch on auto-emotional pilot. To Love, To connect, To grow old and to die....perfect life. Love. May no gift be too small to give, nor too simple to receive, which is wrapped in thoughtfulness and tied with love. Love isn't just something you give away. It's a delicate thing, and it's hard to choose who deserves it. We've got this gift of love, but love is like a precious plant. You can't just accept it and leave it in the cupboard or just think it's going to get on by itself. You've got to keep watering it. You've got to really look after it and nurture it. When have I never loved the pain of love? But this has moved beyond love, into hysteria. Hold tough my heart and let me live. I try my best, I sprint ahead but ill wait, i wanna finish this race with u, If I was not with you I might as well be dead. A Choice of mine yet to be made.

Love is always bestowed as a gift --
freely, willingly, and without expectation....
We don't love to be loved; we love to love.
I can just give it to anybody.

An Oral illustration Pt2(Touch Me, Tease Me, Kiss Me Please Me)

A gentle lick on this visit. A bashful cautious approach. If I have to eat to live then I’m going consume her. She’s Pushed against my hungry mouth. As the tip of my tongue slides up the slippery channel that welcomes me between rows of delicate pink petals. Thrust against my generous tongue. My mouth moved in harmony, she couldn't tell the you from me. She was locked in passion, my sense of time began to blur. I knew this taste from before, so I went for it all and reached her core. Like a worm in an apple in a life perhaps before this one. She felt what I felt, emotions vast, she felt the love of her future, present and past. As I now concentrate on my pleasure in giving to her, I close my eyes, for I have captured the scenery of her body. Your indelible image is stamped on my mind and in fantasy, I will swallow her up. My mouth will consume you, taking you in and she becoming a part of me and I of her until the plains heave up, the mountains shake, and the body-scape before me erupts with the fury buried within the deepest strata of your passionate soul. These jaws of mine protests what my mouth provides but I am unrelenting in my gift, intent only on your fulfillment. I feel her body tense, and she is quiet now... Now again I concentrate shameless, she will get her satisfaction plus more. I heard her call out “Eat me, beat me, bite me, blow me, suck me, very slowly. Jiuahryfbinlr!!!!kiss me dont be sassy use your tongue and make it nasty...” Lick, bite, suck, fuck (It is a mantra that runs through my head), I Do what I will. Ached so badly emotions overwhelmed me. She Up there thinking, I’m down here licking. 'Confide in me your nightmares, Touch me with your darkness, Trust me with your thoughts, Embrace me with your words, Tempt me with your passions, Let my soul be the pillow for your tears I said speaking in tongue. I will be her lover, she will be my rider, I will stay inside her. In and out, deep and shallow, hard and soft-My only focus of the moment, nothing interfering only the internal battle, do I withhold, do I submit? As I match her move for move. There are so many carnal impulses, I feel every1 of them. Overwhelmed by the pleasure that consumes me, I sink and soar with every touch. Her body screams to me “Just let me have my release, Please!! Lick me, bite me, suck me, fuck me” I will answer these calls. They will not be missed. Her eyes are tightly closed as I search deep within. Nature black hair provides a wispy frame for her lovely face as she is swept up in the avalanche of arousal. Her face reveals a recognition of my presence, she is swallowed whole in the ecstacy of sexual pleasures. Until that release comes she is at my mercy, I will guide her to the light, Ever so close to orgasm brightness.
Tongue on skin
Rippling rolling
Hungry hands holding
Perfume flaming
Licking lovingly lips lingering
Clutching nails on my tattoo soft back scratching
Music of her thick breathing, voice of her and her soul unison moans
Sweetness sticky suckling surrendering in greatness
Sweat beading, opening parting, body arching aching, juices rushing Juices flowing Juices Flooding
Climbing crescendo creating clinging convulsing, I hope she doesn’t die on me
Joining tightening releasing waters run over
Panting puzzle pieces find their places purring perfecting performance
Touching tongues tickling time
Smiling sighing her thighs smoking
Completed coupled
Breathing soft
her taste so lovely and unforgettable
wet pink petals
to break her fall
down from heaven
she have to crawl
to find some safeness
in this evil god-forsaken
world.
I saw her chest rise and fall
with each breath she took. SHe tapped out..... came and now in an orgasmic comma. I saw her newly formed six pack that wasn’t there an hour ago. I lick the oyster and made it revel its peal to the world. Smooth and firm it is. I ate her cookie now she calls me monster. No Sesame Street jokes. She wants to put my tongue in the hall of fame but she’ll rather have it in a museum, framed, gold planted next to the Mona Lisa. I ask her to give my tongue a nick-name. So she took her time and pick carefully and called it Zane, for only books can explain. She said Zane is unique && it should be illegal for me to speak. My love n romance is her daily dose, she can't imagine a day without.... this bee in her rose. She loved me but I know she will love my tongue being inside of her more. I may not go down in history but I went down on her history opppsss in her clit-tory. Maybad History…. I’m a lil tongue tired. I'm a Capricorn in your eyes, a virgin in disguise. Speechless as she lay there lifeless still random tumbles from her body now and then. She COMPLETELY fell for me….But I didn't even stumble. Love is not sex, sex is a happiness u feel in thats particular time but love is the happiness you feel every time. This was Nothing more than a mechanically star, Soul-gasm(Soul+Orgasm). So I used my imagination to paint this true story of An Oral illustration.

An Oral illustration Part 1: Vividly Xplained

Crazy nights, neon lights, lustful eyes, full like the moon, in bed with me tonight, I opened her eyes to the other side. A Capricorn playground. She gave me an invitation to her secret place and im going to open it. I have no clue where im goin but I want to. So she’s takes me there. Her and I… alone. Ecstasy but I call it Extra-Tasty. So I tell her to just lay there and enjoy the Show. I know her day was a lil ruff around the edges but ill smooth them out. I promise she’ll love it. Im going to make your mouth say no more. Im going to give her that treatment for im her #1 fan. I hope she didn’t think I forgot about what she did last week, she goin to get some discipline. How can it be? I love how you hurt me, so sexually. Make me cry out in pain and pleasure, but I’m going to return the favor and take it to a point beyond measure. Such pain, such pleasure. I will take my time, I’m not going to let this night end. kiss me now, have sex me later I whisper to her ear softly. I’m going to confess to her lips. French kiss her lips and make her hips smile. A massage that she earn. Im going to teach her body && her lower body will learn. Seduction isn't making someone do what they don't want to do. Seduction is enticing someone into doing what they secretly want to do already And I study this fine art. Subtle scents of Vickie’s body mist, White musk and daisies. Seeping through my senses, Warming my soul. Calming me completely. I am content, safe; within their powers. Mystical supremacy. A bright white sense of heavenly happiness surrounds me. Smells of daisies and lilies. Roses and orchids. I'm a going 2 treat her like a teddy bear. She’s won't wanna go no wear in the life of luxury. Just turn to me, I will give you plenty joy. Love is a matter of chemistry, but my game is a matter of physics. She wanted brain so I gave her the Left & Right of Einstein. And then some. Let me treat that body like a playground, From the top of the slide to the merry go round. Not going to stop 'till im filled and explode, Till her eyes rolled back and her legs locked up. I touched her heart and she wanted me to explore her body, She tells me “Just don't leave me waiting, please don't bait me, taste me I'm so good you'll hate me. Eat me like you hate me” :-) Some real Dr. Seuss Shit, I know. Im not offended but I will give her what she ask for and so I willingly comply looking her in the eyes. In eyes, - my prison, visions of sweetness, of sweat, of lust; promisings of ecstasy’s sin to flower upon my decadent hunger. Shes going to see the real side of this zodiac sign. From where I lie, nestled between her tender thighs I see stretching out before me the spectacular landscape of her beautiful body. My nose is surrounded by the aspen mountains that sprouts upon a bony ridge. Unseen, my tongue has found the fountain of her universe and her earth taste is sweet within my mouth. My eyes travel across the flat plain of her soft stomach, lingering at that shallow crater where a small gem covered ring decorates the rim most distant from me. It is a rolling meadow to the lush knolls of her breasts. A matched set, twin each topped with its own perky nipple sitting alert as though calling out for attention. Beyond her chest and neck display the warm reddish flush that signals herr arousal, like flowers announcing the coming of spring. My eyes travel over and find full lips that reveal only her intense inner pleasure, examining it, like some newly discovered species of flower. Pink orchid of love fragrant flower so rare of desire's full bloom nestled in that glade below her mossy rise my tongue, a hummingbird hungry for passions nectar hovering above her, wanting to drink so deep, and long till my thirst is quenched my hungry heart is filled but for a short blissful time in forevernessland. Cradled between her tender thighs, I’m going to Show her the power of my desire for my oral caress. Her body signals that I have found her special spot. I harden in response. I lift her to my mouth. The abundance of her wetness greets me, my mouth overflows with her warm essence. I’m a Capricorn, I play best when it’s wet. Her sweet taste is on my tongue and her fragrance delights my senses................


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Entrapment: lead

This is a tale of a heart split in half. Elbow on the desk, hands covering my eyes, steams of tears run down my forearms. 1 river per arm. Mississippi on the left, Nile on the right. Dam, Stuck…. No where to go. With tears in my eyes I come to you sincerely. Can’t run, there’s no where to hind. A headache who’s pain is numbed out by the pain from my heart. I gave every bite of what I had, it wasn’t pretty but it was all I had. Entrapped in a horror love story but it’s a true story. Life, Non-fiction. I can’t hind my feelings. I can’t break even. There can only be 1. No Mystery, No submission. Falling in love consists merely in uncorking the imagination and bottling the common-sense. But right common sense has been lost. What’s a Man to do? What to do? I ask of u. I can’t lie. I saw it but I was blinded. The whole world saw it but me. I’ve come to my realization, I wanted it to be something but this is not what I planed. Cheat? It was an option but I chose another route. I want to keep my heart in both places, but I can’t. Not with this love of 2 different faces. Who do I walk out on? Who do I care for more? I can let none of u go. I’m loving 2 and I explain the truth. I was never playing games. Endless but not for long. I have love for u…. I do. But as of now I’m in 2 different places. My love is a Maze. I know I can’t love 2 forever. Doing this, saying this is like living in a world with no sound. Heartstrings Are Played upon. My tears washed all progress away. Who do I leave behind? Unable to complete the task at hand. Karma usually comes wearing a stranger’s light, but I can’t live in the dark forever. Nowhere to hide, no turning back, no rearrangement, its said, its done. Such strong emotion of complete care, and pure devotion put into everything. It seems to bring, just pain and fear, Along with shame, and then the tears. Slow tears. Heart vixen, like a pair of dice with a flick of my hand I roll snake eyes. Alcohol mixed with water cant tell the difference between my love for my love’s. Heartfelt cries, meadows, touched with dew. Beneath the thousand twinkling stars lies jagged scars Tree’s with a breeze a world with no oxygen. Gentle rain, silent pain, accompanied by heartfelt sighs, lost among the stars this night, too far to ease my quiet fright. Fate’s cruelest curse. Love is 3/4 dream and 1/4 reality. Problems usually arise when you fall in love with the dream and not the reality. But, yet you find true love when you fall in love with both. I feel at peace playing within fire, within water. Christmas in the summer, I love the 2 but they don’t live with one another. My heart, emotions hopelessly bound. My love Ripped at the seem. My heart empty/full torn apart with my mind invaded with thoughts, So cruel and so unrefined. The lust and fantasy leaving me empty. Wretched and compelled, Betrayal to myself Betrayal to u, Revealing the terrors of my love, my love for both. Wash my soul, cleanse me. I’m sorry Because I broke your heart. I should have listened to mine It said you’ll die apart. So puzzling and so complex, I’m left to await another clue. What was false, what was true? I can’t control your feelings; I can’t take back what I’ve done. Love has no expectations, I don’t expect you feel me, understand but my heart loves 2 faces, and I can’t keep it in both homes. Trip over love, you can get up. Fall in love and you fall forever. Entrapment, one forgives to the degree that one loves. You may wish to love-- you may even try with all your might--but your love will never be pure unless you are free from resentment. When we are free from resentment, loving is effortless. When we have to try hard to love, this is generally a sign that we are repressing our resentments. A Broken heart coming soon.

Emo........

When it rain, It floods. Water raise like the Moon. But What’s wrong? Why is she sitting on the floor, in the corner. Why is she in a bright room but in the darkest corner? Nyctophobia? Exodus 10:21 & Matthew 8:12 drawn on the walls with the paint running, still wet. Tell me the story. Answers my Whys. She does, with a picture. I read her colors and dark images. I now feel her pain. Some say it’s the self esteem. Some say it’s the missing of love. To me forever. She pours out to me like wine, like a watch this gets better with time. They watch and try to anticipate. Dark angels, Bright demons. Sometimes you have to going thru the pain to experience the joy. She was murdered with his love. This feeling Transformed from light to dusty grey, each sinew embroidered day by day. Dam this room got a lot gloomy and arctic quick. Leaching vows of eternal spring, Failed dreams on bloody skin. Her house of glass, A hostage wearing its deathly mask, so she tinted her widows. Tortured mind fragments its pain. Impervious once, now insane. You lucid dreams were wasted truth, love became the hanging noose. This stage should be forbidden in the human soul, for not even one can yearn for control. Control of the shadow side on the heart. Shadow of love. Aspersion painted across ardent irises, bleeding fallacies amongst the orchids, planted to pave her personal Eden. Facades of this amiss world, esoteric of acidic aromas arise, to awake liquid anarchy. Her Tears turn to rose petals, Rose petals into poems. A poem's just a poem, Till they say its a piece of art. Light a poem on fire, sad ones burn the best she tells me. I just wonder, but I wait and let her finish her tale. I’m a d-boy yea I’m a Dreamer, so I put myself in her shoes. A black beach with soy colored sand on Dooms day. Those screwed memory hunt me, made me regret, the demon really shows, my body shivers with disbelief staring into emotions wanting to escape. She caged hers in, in a hollow heart. My heart. Her words overtake me. In a dark room we sit at peace, the love which we knew, was ripped at the seem. As i swam those sweet thoughts. The dead do not suffer the living, so why should the living suffer the dead. Clearly I’m living so what doesn’t that mean?

A child lives within with a pair of scissors and cut off the wings of the butterflies. A soul growing but not fading & pain that’s not decaying. Owls Flying out of windows, Sadness Running thru the corridor. I Watch the shadows Emerging from the moonlight. Sins make our destiny. Everyone is a goon she tells me. Goons? Yea Goon, She laughs for she’s a ghoul. But Moons Don't Mope. Huh? The moon tells me a secret. My confidant. As full and bright as I am, this light is not my own. A million light reflections pass over me. The source is bright and endless. It resuscitates the hopeless without her (the moon) we are lifeless satellites drifting. She tells me her Supercilious Dream, that Once upon a time… On a hill not far away the sun was shining brightly on a magical young day. Smiles on the children, giggles in the air, bliss in the water. A love that all do share. The fields were full of laughter.. The hills were full of song. Kids die and bleed just a lil more. Screams unheard because of the high pitch scud missiles in flight. Because humans want to fight each other over oil. Gots to love the United States. Razor blade kiss, just another French kiss to the world. Dam She’s deep.

I understand now. I fall, heart first into the abyss. limited existence created by He who pulls the puppet strings, but I don’t like being caged so I fly free. The death of a hero, Godspeed my son please return safe the other birds sing to me. The sad truth is that most evil is done by people who never make up their minds to be good or evil. The saddest aspect of life right now is that science gathers knowledge faster than society gathers wisdom.Black Bees with no cautious stripes, bee hives with oil not honey.Now I sit in the corner like an onion without layers. Burning despair and ice-cold darkness. Darkness jaws with which to devour love. Not all scars show, not all wounds heal Sometimes you can't always see the pain someone feels. Why do people tell you to believe in what you want to but then tell you not to believe in the one true thing you do believe in? My candle burns at both ends; It will not last the night; But, ah, my foes, and, oh, my friends - it gives a lovely light. Do not assume that he who seeks to comfort you now, lives untroubled among the simple and quiet words that sometimes do you good. His life may also have much sadness and difficulty, which remains far beyond yours. Were it otherwise, he would never have been able to find these words. Emotional hardcore, EmoCore. Dam, obfuscation and obscure views now I see what she saw and the Whys. Specious, that false look of truth & genuineness. Emo, feeling your inner self.

Ice Queen Pt2

P.S.

She’s beautiful and extraordinary, vines put forth their tender grapes Because our future will be blessed with wonder that shall never end. This girl I seek out will be 1 with no other. Ill eat/Drank her just like A Honey Bun with Strawberry Milk. A girl who can make my childhood fairytales secretly come to life. A girl who can dip my emotions in holy water and save them. A girl who can built a castle around my heart. Every time I glance at her face or try to confide in her warmth she’ll let me, embrace, cuddled up feeling safe and dry the hate and anger. && Just tell me to pacify. She will dance away with me in the rain, drain away my fear and pain. A girl who’s Love, being pure-intentions being true, will slowly & slowly, her love for me will make me cross the fence.With her loving smile her hypnotic sent humble lips. Cursive cured body. Sweet coco-vanilla ice queen will give me mesmerizing ice for my long hot Florida summers. How she flew and how she landed in my heart will give tears to the eyes of viewers who watch the union of 2 on that special day. We’ll kiss,butt I’ll never want to say "Goodbye”so I wont, just a see u later because I will. Her words will just flow, swoon & spoon feed my inter self life come true fantasies. The sky twists and twirls around her finger, she will write in the clouds in heaven I love you, which resonate through every door. But she has the password and opens all the doors in my heart’s palace and swallows the key. Our TRUE LOVE will keep growing and merge Forever and more. When I sleep my heart is awake from the vice of love within we share. By day or night I seek her love my life mate, my partner, my friend. Her eyes speak without words. But I’ll always read her; she’ll be my favorite book. This girl that I want is not that. She’s not a girl at all, and no I’m not coming out of the closet. This girl will be a woman. God gave man a woman to adore And a woman a man to respect. God gave us children we love till death,To provide for, cherish and protect. Soon this day will come, and Us will become 1. I hope this letter finds its way in this glass bottle.Thanks for listening.


Sincerely, Pitcher of Creative Imaginations Spawn by Shawn opps i mean Sean

Ice Queen: Sweeter Than Honey Oaks So I Wear Her Love Like A Coat

Dear Catcher on my Dreams,

I notice from many nights and hours on time spent and now bankrupt. I understand and receive as much as I can from the situation. Ravishing light born, I will move on in my journey & I will pass thousand of streets but she’ll be my road of happiness, and tell me to stop! There’s no more need to pursue it. My standards of that special person I wait for it my life are pretty high, but she will be the bar. Now in my early Terrible 2’s, I slowly but surely will be entering that uncharted world of forever and ever. Love Sex and new life awaits me. From 2 we shall make sum. Some miniatures with names that will be stuck with them for life. As a soulmate and partner which will forever be 1, even when my days grow shorten by age and hairs become grey. I want her and extended my hand out into a hat filled with the world of names. LIKE A LILY AMONG THE THORNS But I’m not in a rush but I pick more wisely. Those old years teach u wisdom. Those Short relationships from my history. But this girl who I look for with a name I know not is going to be perfect in my eyes but riddle with bullets holes to others. Ex’s will wish to be her and on her level. She’ll let dem know that they mite want to buy a space shuttle or a ladder that’s forever. This girl I wish to meet soon will give me that other 180 to make us 360. She and I. Us together not ever acknowledge them or thoses. Hating will max out and become the norm. I want her to leave me clueless. Quiet ignorance of another kind, Blood and impact, a greenish blue, A brighter blue than I used to. Turn sad into happy. She’s cleaner then a virgin in detergent. We will just lay in the meadow and watch clouds together. Laugh at the images painted in the sky. That only we can see. Bite off the heads of animal cookies and drink a chilled glass of lemon aid. But at nite we'll Play connect the dots with stars and drink wine and talk about our outer this world love for each other, we call stars or mars an inside joke that will always provide a smile. Cosmic filled eyes my girl, her goodness shows, like an open flower. Sweet fragrance flowers spreading its pedals Makes me feel more alive then the first morning of spring. A girl who can brings life to a leafless garden. Hazel eyes, baby lotions soft skin. Flowing hair. A voice that sounds like an opening fanfare for angels as they gain there white dove like set of wings. She will shot dead black crows and the supplication dies down and makes my misery long forgotten, rotten, burn them to ashes. I want her to be my world, my eternity. She can Make me laugh by accident, Bring me out of my comfort zone and show me other new light to life. I may be a virgin to the world but I’m open minded.Fruitless Desire that’s bittersweet….kinda like when it rains with the sun out and no clouds in the sky.To be continue...



Sincerely, Pitcher of Creative Imaginations Spawn by Shawn opps i mean Sean

To be continue...

Sign

I sit here on lonely Ave and broken heart street. I fail on hard times. Not looking for spare change. Don’t need clothes. I’m a little bang up & thrashed but it’s only due to time. People gaze but don’t really see me. They see the sign but don’t interpret it. Day behind day I sit here and wait for a person to respond but my calls are the same as a phone that rings on silent. Years have passed and still nothing fresh or new. I ask this couple that passes by if they have any luck to spare. But I’m deliberately over looked. Well that was better than being spit on like last week. I’ve investigate my whole heart but I didn’t uncover any in there. But I’m truthfully on my last. Wish some1 would notice me. Excuse me miss, she smile and tells she can’t help me. I smile back because she brightens up the day for me. I tell her thanks. She turns and asks why? I answer, that was the best gift I’ve received in a long time. She had a bamboozled look on her face but she understood and told me she wished me the best. I smile and thanked her for her blessings. I then got a flash back of the day when I lost it. The very moment when I took it for granted, went too far. I dropped onto my knees, showed gratitude and cried in vein. I just want to feel it again. I know there’s no turning back, no rearrangement. That’s when I was changed. I’m letting go, waking up and living up to what I had proposed. But I learned from my mistakes. It’s not something you earned but something that you deserve. I’m not afraid to give what my soul expose just wish I could find the film. I had it before, it was everything I fantasizes and better than the preview. I reach out with every breath but the world places my soundtrack on mute. I still sit here on this corner with my sign, why does the world of people with 20/20 act so blind. I know 1 thing if I fall to the ground I will get back up and fight another round. I will promise to hold this sign to the sweet end. My Sign that says “I will work for love”. I will work for love over time, all my life. Can u help me? Can u see…. Did you read my sign?