Déjà Vu - My heart is Paranoid

Did I see u in my nightmares or was it a fairytale
I know I have experience this before
When, lets see
Now if I do my math right
This part was left
In…. my junior year in high school
Hmmm…..im a junior, it was a leap year
Okay Cool

So wat happen?
Best friend had ever thing in common with me
Saw her everyday, feelings grew
And my ship didn’t have a capt-ton
And we cross the line
Tried to be lovers & Friends
It sounded good when usher say it..
So u C-net, Drum Major
Dancer, Player, Marcher
It only made sense for us to like each other
We were parallel.
1 thing in the way…. My first love

Pooh, but piglet wanna to have more cake
Slowly I let that long distant become
An Tool of the incompetent which build monuments of nothingness
Something we both know by heart.
But she broke my heart
With the lies, the secrets
2/27
Things I brought, strawberries cheese cake
We ate? But u became late
And It was later for me
She loved her a bad(thug ass nigga) her X

Junior in college
Wat happens?
So this lil
c-net, I think nothing of it
we talk for the first time & she
already had info on me
she liked me…
so I get to kno her, on the outside she is
my
TpYe
In high skool a
drum major, dancing, marcher
lil red female just shows up in my life
so im Hype
ready to do this
but this all feels so like it
happen before?

We started talkin 9/27
Due to the likes we have
We have a mental bond
We know wat eachother feels
But this time I see my soul mate
Mates from heaven
And guess wat just like K
She has a p-word

Ive seen wat that can do and how it can change a future
She bright, with a lot goin for her
I see the answer
But she Is scared

Scared
To hurt me?
To be with me, she feels that im 2 good for her
To perfect?
So wat to do?
Im not selfish, I understand everything
So this is my calling
Help somebody with a problem bigger than me
Put my feelings aside to make a future same alive
Im doin this for her
Ive seen this show before
Different actors?
So how do I create change?
Wat did I learn from the first time?
How did I mature?
Do I be selfish & put myself first
Walk away will wats left of my loving heart
OR
Do this for her
A risk
Do wat I feel is right.
I understand & this is not to put her in a position
2 make her feel like she oles me a
Relationship.

The experience of déjà vu is usually accompanied by a compelling sense of familiarity, and also a sense of "eeriness," "strangeness," or "weirdness," The "previous" experience is most frequently attributed to a dream. But i lived this. This Recollection of events in my life. Every signpost in nature Said you belong to me. You're the flower I'm the rain. That X who ur compass sayz is north, but is not true. Nature always sides with the hidden flaw. If there is a possibility of several things going wrong, the one that will cause the most damage will be the one to go wrong. If there is a worse time for something to go wrong, it will happen then.. Every solution breeds new problems.. I feel like A stone's throw from Jerusalem. It's like singing in the wind Or writing on the surface of a lake. i write on. Tomorrow's rain will wash the stains away. It is never too late to be what you might have been. My heart understands what my head cannot yet conceive; I trust my heart. A ship in the harbor is safe, but that is not what ships are built for.

Overlap of life, Déjà vu

Genuinely happened in the past.
Now My Present...