Smoke

Warning: U Will have to read this completely in order to understand.

Smoke
free flowing.
having no rules, no laws,
able to fill a complete room
inhale
a wall, unable to see thru
blocks light,
cuts off oxygen & takes life
healing powers
emotional & mental

Invisible particles of combustion. All the good and greatest blown apart. Liquid particulates and gases formed from what I once that. My perfect lil world now lays in waste. I burn all my hate, anger and adversity. Light candles to cheer up my mood. Oil lamps to light my way. I sit and watch the freeness of Smoke. As a rule, adversity reveals genius and prosperity hides it. But life has no rules and neither does this smokey gas, Having no rules, no laws. I travel like a comet wild
On which some distant sun had smiled,
And from my orbit thus beguiled
With a long tail of smoke.
And smirk with high-born dames who doubt:
Thy flames are quenched, thy fires are out,
And sinking into smoke.
It were, when poets droop in fame,
To see smoke brighten into flame,
Than flames sink into smoke."
The odor vile, the noisome taint
Of horrid, stale smoke
Yet lingers

Lingering bullshit that fucked up my life. How can I smile with this depression on my face like a dimple? It was only my first job. It was only my only income. It’s just a black school in Tallahassee that seems to never answer the phone when u need them to. The aid I need seems to not be on its way this year due to the humans that are on vacation with my aid money but it’s cool. Cool runnings in winter. Exhale hot air that meets the cold oxygen to form smoke. Its only life. Thick, hard to inhale this dark air. Life seems darker then the black side of the moon. I wanna just jook this off and dance on this thin ass ice.
The stars are constantly shining, but often I do not see them until the dark hours. It is during my darkest moments that I must focus to see the light. I want this smoke to clear, wonder what will be left after it settles. Adversity is sometimes hard upon a me; but for one man who can stand prosperity, there are a hundred that will stand adversity. I can’t even bring myself to tear up and cry from the tear gas of smoke. If I traveled to the end of the rainbow as Dame Fortune did intend, Murphy would be there to tell me the pot's at the other end. What a law that was written by Mr. Murphy. (Ironic, i know)
If we study the lives of great men and women carefully and unemotionally we find that, invariably, greatness was developed, tested and revealed through the darker periods of their lives. One of the largest tributaries of the RIVER OF GREATNESS is always the STREAM OF ADVERSITY. Every path has its puddle. But its hard to see them during the fog of adversity. Smoke, Conceive true deception multiplied a million fold. Visualize the yin and yang in a battle so intense that we get em confused. I Take this life dead serious while others entertain it. I let this smoke take my body, My stomach can't digest it even when I bless it. My issues need to be addressed like envelopes and return back in the smokey world of hell it came from. Sores that was open wounds eventually turn to scabs. I will sacrifice every breath I breathe for my love of life. Looking at the canvas of life, compromise my art with this adverse haze that screens out my hope. I search for loopholes in this smoke, but I cant with this Single minded mentality. Adversity runnin up on me like it misses me. Things turn out best for those who make the best of the way things turn out. Tragedy, sadness, loneliness and despair taught me that life is really a beautiful thing; if it wasn't I wouldn't be able to recognize that anything was wrong. The harder I fall, the higher I will bounce. The way I bounce back from this will show myself my true character. Notice I said myself and not you for I can careless about what the world thinks of me.

Smoke
free flowing.
having no rules, following no laws,
able to fill the largest of all spaces
Exhale
a wall, unable to see thru
blocks out every beam of all light,
cuts off oxygen & takes all life
healing powers

Fate, is an excuse for why I end up where I am! MY 'Actions' predetermine MY Destiny; MY 'Reactions' seal that fate. God brings men into deep waters not to drown them, but to cleanse them. Trying my best to never let my head hang down. Never give up and sit down and grieve. I look 2 Find another way. And I make sure to not pray when it rains, if I don't pray when the sun shines. God left the world unfinished for man to work his skill upon. He left the electricity still in the cloud, the oil still in the earth. How often I look upon God as my last and feeblest resource! I go to Him because I have nowhere else to go. And then I learn that the storms of life have driven me, not upon the rocks, but into the desired haven. I have no right to ask when sorrow comes, Why did this happen to me? Unless I ask the same question for every moment of happiness that comes my way. The good things of prosperity are to be wished; but the good things that belong to adversity are to be admired. So I do, I admire the freeness of your ways. Having no edges, but waves of slow moving pale skin. Smoke, in this beautiful nightmare. The bravest sight in the world is to see a great man struggling against adversity. I Struggle hard with life, what keeps me going, what keeps me fighting? The fear of failure. Adversity causes some men to break, others to break records. At the rate that I’m ahead my life should be a sport in the Olympics. Skywriting this only reward. The reward of my suffering is this experience. Love is a smoke made with the fume of sighs. Being purged, a fire sparkling in lovers eyes. Being vexed, a sea nourished with lovers tears. What is it else? A madness most discreet, a choking gall and a preserving sweet.

So Sean Felix Rahmings what do u wanna be when u grow up?
Answer: Alive! Candy apple of my eye. Death's Field is the mirror which allows us the knowledge of the world we living in. I know my name is written in his book but I hope my page is some where between the last page and back cover. Life really does feel like its under. Its hard to look at the world from below. Looking up at the world. Feels like a heart beat with out any bass. So I breathe deep and blow a hole thru this adversity,
Smoke

Smoke
Freed, flowing
Having no rules, no laws,
Able to fill time
Inhale
a divider, unable to distinguish, peer thru
Blocks light,
Cuts off oxygen & takes life
Therapeutic powers
Emotionality & mentality
Smoke from the burned leaf of my life’s
Adversity