Entrapment: lead

This is a tale of a heart split in half. Elbow on the desk, hands covering my eyes, steams of tears run down my forearms. 1 river per arm. Mississippi on the left, Nile on the right. Dam, Stuck…. No where to go. With tears in my eyes I come to you sincerely. Can’t run, there’s no where to hind. A headache who’s pain is numbed out by the pain from my heart. I gave every bite of what I had, it wasn’t pretty but it was all I had. Entrapped in a horror love story but it’s a true story. Life, Non-fiction. I can’t hind my feelings. I can’t break even. There can only be 1. No Mystery, No submission. Falling in love consists merely in uncorking the imagination and bottling the common-sense. But right common sense has been lost. What’s a Man to do? What to do? I ask of u. I can’t lie. I saw it but I was blinded. The whole world saw it but me. I’ve come to my realization, I wanted it to be something but this is not what I planed. Cheat? It was an option but I chose another route. I want to keep my heart in both places, but I can’t. Not with this love of 2 different faces. Who do I walk out on? Who do I care for more? I can let none of u go. I’m loving 2 and I explain the truth. I was never playing games. Endless but not for long. I have love for u…. I do. But as of now I’m in 2 different places. My love is a Maze. I know I can’t love 2 forever. Doing this, saying this is like living in a world with no sound. Heartstrings Are Played upon. My tears washed all progress away. Who do I leave behind? Unable to complete the task at hand. Karma usually comes wearing a stranger’s light, but I can’t live in the dark forever. Nowhere to hide, no turning back, no rearrangement, its said, its done. Such strong emotion of complete care, and pure devotion put into everything. It seems to bring, just pain and fear, Along with shame, and then the tears. Slow tears. Heart vixen, like a pair of dice with a flick of my hand I roll snake eyes. Alcohol mixed with water cant tell the difference between my love for my love’s. Heartfelt cries, meadows, touched with dew. Beneath the thousand twinkling stars lies jagged scars Tree’s with a breeze a world with no oxygen. Gentle rain, silent pain, accompanied by heartfelt sighs, lost among the stars this night, too far to ease my quiet fright. Fate’s cruelest curse. Love is 3/4 dream and 1/4 reality. Problems usually arise when you fall in love with the dream and not the reality. But, yet you find true love when you fall in love with both. I feel at peace playing within fire, within water. Christmas in the summer, I love the 2 but they don’t live with one another. My heart, emotions hopelessly bound. My love Ripped at the seem. My heart empty/full torn apart with my mind invaded with thoughts, So cruel and so unrefined. The lust and fantasy leaving me empty. Wretched and compelled, Betrayal to myself Betrayal to u, Revealing the terrors of my love, my love for both. Wash my soul, cleanse me. I’m sorry Because I broke your heart. I should have listened to mine It said you’ll die apart. So puzzling and so complex, I’m left to await another clue. What was false, what was true? I can’t control your feelings; I can’t take back what I’ve done. Love has no expectations, I don’t expect you feel me, understand but my heart loves 2 faces, and I can’t keep it in both homes. Trip over love, you can get up. Fall in love and you fall forever. Entrapment, one forgives to the degree that one loves. You may wish to love-- you may even try with all your might--but your love will never be pure unless you are free from resentment. When we are free from resentment, loving is effortless. When we have to try hard to love, this is generally a sign that we are repressing our resentments. A Broken heart coming soon.