Dwell

dwell
well
full of tears
i come here
time after time
all throughout the year
pending

i bring a gift
ur level seem a lil low again
& i just happen to have gotten my heart
broken
but ill tell u the recital,
and lets not forecast the ending.

love is intermingle
in the mix
yea, its here
so we, me, & her
have a chemical bond
we are a match
a Fucking mirror.


for the things we share
its makes me proud
to know we can breathe the same air
i think of the what if?
what if we didn't meet?
that makes me want her more
we want eachother

<<<>>>

I'm selfish
I AM
why so serious?
cause i care
4 her
I DO.
i saw her in her ups and
Downs.


<<<<&>>>>>
i saw thru her
str8.....,
right into her
soul.

she makes my divine spark
spirit
happy,
and we feel for each other
consistently
typically
naturally.
nature answer my question
She gave me myself
in a female form.

but can i have her?
i cant have her?
why show me heaven and not let me live
there?

i slap on a smile to keep the
nose's from smelling
the hurt & sadness
but i manage to see
the greatness
the pure
within her.

Alive, She who lives
the meaning that so deep
so I'm stuck
YEP Stuck

a wet pillow
and empty thing
of cookie dough
ice cream
Y?

i see and had in my hand
everything i ever needed
or wanted
from a woman
&&
its not wat i need right now.

so i sit here and look
into 2 my heart
i see a mirror
with a woman
looking at her self
crying
eyes a well
dwell....

i love/hate you

Zion, aborted

Can u handle this life
a life
i think u should know about this
story
i will not let you go

i tell your words
ur life
ill sing your song
the pain of it

a world u enter
no choice but the
moment
you blind
no eyes
in darkness
u fear nobody
not even god

softly u live
closer
higher than any of us
nothing in the world matter
a King
maybe prince of heaven

the blood that runs thru me
is share
in u
i keep ur mother
happy as god's child
on x-mas
so you will be healthy

all i wanted was you in my life
butterflies
i ask heaven to send angels to watch over u
with faith, u cant have fear
they cancel each other
u fear nobody
not even god

handle it
i know
ill play my part the best
i listen to ur heart beat, full of love
life because of us
her & i

lights flash
a black world turns
pink
walls?
its an intruder
he screams
he crys
he speak in a language only angels
understand

they take him home
it was not his time
the world wasnt really
his life was 2 mature
way ahead of its time
energy in a pure form

sad i never was able to see u
and never see me
ur life needed a chance
so wat do u do?
follow ur heart or head?

life 4 u is only about to begin
love u
joy
a heaven
peace
in Zion

later

Escape

May i say
as drag myself along
pray
crawling thur life
i want to walk but i have yet to have learned
matriculate

I'm naturally bashful
Me humble,
awaiting u
i watch u stroll up to my bedroom.
i tell myself I'm goin to change, I'm getting out of the game
but i end up right here.

pour liq for my dismembered hearts of the past
i see her starting to change on me like the seasons
the relationship we have is camouflaged
No gossip
no1 knows.....
no 1 eyes see

she's my bee
& I'm her honey
her babe
Baby
but I'm losing u
so I'm lost 2

i want Ur touch
those X's of urs fucked up
& lil Ole me
Lucked up
i am here to wipe Ur tears
to clean up the mess made from others
fix wat was rip
can u do the same 4 me?

i hope u never forget me
the last guys trash and now my queen
talk to me
let me show u other sides to me
so slide wit me
swing, seesaw
love

we r connected,
linked
u & i were looking for it
but we are in it.
its written on my mirror from Ur finger tips
and i wrote it on ur lips

she not like the others
she ask me for nothing
so i give her everything
therapy
she lets me in

the darkness in my life is
gone
thanks for light wit u halo
Destiny
its save to trust again
free the love in Ur heart
as i did

this time she found me....

My last words un heard

Sometimes, when one person is missing,
the whole world seems depopulated.
My mother ran my life but u were the tempo
No more pain,
I know u are looking out 4 me on the other side
Looking down on me,
He wanted u
so he send for u
Ur job is done here on earth
Time to retire to a better life,
In heaven
So ill lead the marching band as
Drummajor in the parade of your life.
Celebrating u.
Playing angel songs.
U woke up out of a contradicting life to live your dream.
Took from bottom to top
Ur next in to experience the truth.
Fly higher than all the others angels for me within the land of forever
Peace
Love
& happiness.
Perhaps they are not stars,
But rather openings in heaven
Where the love of our
Lost ones
Pours through & shines down
Upon us to let us know
They are happy.
I see you shining at night 7 during the day.
U now live in a level heaven
America is unlevel in this world
Thank you for the lessons and teaching.
U blessed me with your wisdom
Now u live in life’s love freedom.
I know u don’t want me to so say good bye so ill
Say
See u later
Mrs. Gloria Smith.
The people we love are stolen from us,
The way to have them live on is to never stop
Loving them.

The Real Loss

Tell me wat u think*

I look up to u
bite my lip
take in deep pull of
Oxygen.....
Pray
humble myself
i love her like she loves me

Help me
Save me
The Real loss
only occurs
when you
lose something
that you
love
more than
your
self

it happen again
Ur son was lead on
like oreos with no milk
lead on
in a different way
I never achieved wat was assumed I did
why ?
How? why
explain

Feed me with wisdom
Free me
i want to eat
love foods
i want the taste of happiness
Apples
cinn-a-Mon
Warm Honey
Lemon sweet hot teas
The nectar of life
essence
Colour
of red......

But Why her too?
Shocked, i sit,
Mom Why?
u gave birth
i was born
but u dont share the feelin
a sweet
soul mate
perfect for me
So bright but So dark

this is my life
bout that life?
this economic recession
knife?
Space
sad
Full Moon Tears.

The Real loss
only occurs
when you
lose something
that you
love
more than
your
self

Time for change

Action “ 2008 =Year of The Shone”

Legs spread eagle, Can’t believe it’s not butter. Thinking no-one else knows but yes, guys talk; good and bad. Hoe-ish activites but somehow the shone feels that she should be treat as a House Wife. I know, it was funny when I heard it too. See, Shones have a smaller brain, and due to recent studies by Shonelogies their brains are 45% small than that of ur average female. I’m sorry but I refuse to just let these shones walk around thinking that they are the ripest shit on earth and should be put on a pedestal. Sure I don’t mind handing u an award “MVP Shone” and maybe a blood test but that’s about all u can get from me. I could devastate my time and convey a message on how to carry urself but Shones seem to only find it humorous. What I find funny is ur name on top of the Easy Fuck list. I don’t know, maybe it’s the new style of 2008. Shones have been around since day 1, but it wasn’t until 2005 that shones developed vocal cords and began communicating words “lies” & filling victim’s heads with hopes and dreams. At first dudes ate it up like the dollar menu but light has been shown and it’s BRIGHT. In the early day, Shones didn’t live very long. Aids nearly wipe them clean out. The oldest shones still living is Lil Kim and Karrine Steffans( Supa Head). Shonehood seems to be at an all time high. Now with meds for STD’s, shoning is at its Peak. Shones now feel that because they have numbers, they can just shone their way to the top and give every man that comes their way Syphilis. Some are out there willing to take the “L” (like suicide bombers in the middle east)and are just waiting to catch a brother slipping. (R.I.P to the fallen brothers who were not informed) Late 2007They found the weakness. The males EYES. Cutting the Short Shorts, and skirts to make them shorter, Getting tattoos on those C cups and thighs, Wearing tights so the print can be soon, long store brought hair, the list goes on. I’ve been in the shone nest. Shone even tried to take it but I knew better. Shone got trazed. It’s a shone world out there and they are learning. Shones may not be able to smell nor taste but Shones will be shones no matter how wat. Beware of the shone and the magical; super-shone-natural powers they hold. I’m bout that life but I’m not bout that shone life. But shones r good 4 that quickie.

Murder

After the smoke cleared, there where 3 bodies. 2 with the hearts cut out and 1 with the mouth completely removed. What happen? Why this? Who’s 2 blame? There’s not much I can say. I will speak my truth. When I was handed the secret the underlined the truth I enter a state of Emotional shock. Naw Mans were repeated out of my mouth losing tone after each 1. The look on my face was the same 1 that i had on that day when I learned god brother/ best friend was gunned down. I’m good for keeping things in so I did. This heart break was different because it was personally. I when into this relationship cautious, following the rules of the game, moving slowly looking around each corner. Space was giving, and the room was there. There were no reasons for the word lie to be stamp on any of the sentences. I knew that we were different in almost every possible way know to man. Opposites. So I opening my mind and travel the new road to new lands in the relationship world. I took my time to let everything craft itself into something loving. All of her statements made me want to try and break out of my shell. Heart racing, nervousness takes over cause heart break is something that no 1 forgets. Theirs is no need for me to go into extreme detail. How I feel right now, things could have been worst and I’m thankful it wasn’t. At the end of the day I did give her a physical part of me that no other saw. A side to which no else had. To me it meant the world and made me stand out more. I choose wisely and gave her my gift. All I ever wanted was to be more then her last which turn out to be first, when u enter the condition of long distant, you take a risk because you are now thinking long term. So I made plans to keep myself faithful and always on truth. I don’t know what will happen but I hope what happens, happens for the best. This hurt is something that can not go away just because I let u get replaced. You wanted me to put your name on me so I did.

That’s 2 down for me and we are only half way thru the year 2008.