Murder

After the smoke cleared, there where 3 bodies. 2 with the hearts cut out and 1 with the mouth completely removed. What happen? Why this? Who’s 2 blame? There’s not much I can say. I will speak my truth. When I was handed the secret the underlined the truth I enter a state of Emotional shock. Naw Mans were repeated out of my mouth losing tone after each 1. The look on my face was the same 1 that i had on that day when I learned god brother/ best friend was gunned down. I’m good for keeping things in so I did. This heart break was different because it was personally. I when into this relationship cautious, following the rules of the game, moving slowly looking around each corner. Space was giving, and the room was there. There were no reasons for the word lie to be stamp on any of the sentences. I knew that we were different in almost every possible way know to man. Opposites. So I opening my mind and travel the new road to new lands in the relationship world. I took my time to let everything craft itself into something loving. All of her statements made me want to try and break out of my shell. Heart racing, nervousness takes over cause heart break is something that no 1 forgets. Theirs is no need for me to go into extreme detail. How I feel right now, things could have been worst and I’m thankful it wasn’t. At the end of the day I did give her a physical part of me that no other saw. A side to which no else had. To me it meant the world and made me stand out more. I choose wisely and gave her my gift. All I ever wanted was to be more then her last which turn out to be first, when u enter the condition of long distant, you take a risk because you are now thinking long term. So I made plans to keep myself faithful and always on truth. I don’t know what will happen but I hope what happens, happens for the best. This hurt is something that can not go away just because I let u get replaced. You wanted me to put your name on me so I did.

That’s 2 down for me and we are only half way thru the year 2008.

Untitled Status, Feelings Unwritten

I sit silent with a mouth open words unable 2 form
I wish these tears would flow up back to there home
Another bad day.
Another 1 of those
World against me and I figure u could help me fight back
But u didn’t have my back
You was my trusted foe
Feeling I though we shared
Times we spent together
i considerate 2 be great
heartbreak is always on time
& for once love was late
passions shared between we, us you and I
and also a small lil problem,
it was shared with another guy
I was not first which makes me last
You were my angel with so much class
im miserable
This feeling that so typical
So normal for me
When there’s a heart to break god seems to pick
Me
From the tree.
Love is forbidden
And this adam will not have an eve
But this is my eve before the break of my heart
I hope this is a lie
This relationship came from this word “Like” form the start
Once again my emotions were blind
So I ask this question in paused time,
What happens when the truth isn’t good enough?
When my strawberries have a taste of lime
I guess love is a feeling I need but just not now.
Bitch, fucks, asses and Shit
My mouth still open
Silently as I sit.

UFO

UFO

We ask questions, she give you no reactions,
will this world fail? she give no answers
the puzzle is rhetorical
Human, plague, you are your own cancer
china takes home gold
and the economy slows
ends are not met
3rd world blind with eyes around the corner
being stocked
off with the heads,
guillotine
the country bleeds wounded in bed

Nooses rap around umbilical cords of new borns
future dies before the eyes are formed
it cost 3 cent to print franklins
so ponder ur minds on that 1
the sunsets in other worlds
Catch up in another green earth
but i follow the wise
open 4 ur trust
she open some eyes
but i enter in sections
playing Facebook’s note
Hero

she is so round and about
Now u tube and glue
Urself 2 television and eat it all up
mouths open like babies
fed this bullshit black on black crimes
First 48 hour realities
there’s always an equal amount of hate
as great
stuffed, tight
i call koolaid purple when it taste
grape

Don’t stay trap in a maze
for i am……amaz-in
Come with she, take off and live in the sky's worlds away.
live the good life
trying to built like Lego, let go of shit’s e-go.
And remember Sin is spell with an N like No
&& be-come so gone like post cards
No more darks ended up behind colour, sightless bars
but u chase ur shadow while i case my intelligent
please dont chuck hollows
At the first negro president,
U will live with words in Karma
dont stop her like an ,
comma

Smile of the grammys
Os and bricks
u feel her like a new tooth
detoxed ur mothers body for earth's sick
laced up like j's
but dont jump man
the balls in ur court
shoot free throws or slam
Please no Nike Drunks
but these floor seats are wat counts
Most!

moist fore heads remember rained out events
but the rainbow's in sight
So take flight
lands in thick puff's of white
Polar
Roar
Solar
by far
galaxies see u as just another star
someone out there has place a wish on ur head
so shine bright,
dont let these days become night

Now she lift me on her wings made from elves and angels
take me away with every breathe on life
in line’s straights an angles
get me on my toes like superman
dont stay down 4ever
i too can be in my lord’s family photo
no matter what they forecast the weather
these words line u up like a fisherman
so don’t swim, don’t go
hope u have a fall back
like corn bread at thanksgiving
left over black friday's store doors closed.

U read what i write and ur brain hears it in Cursive
but i shock u like games of operations
with Sentences bold, and margin right
these crystal that sparkle in my eyes From her light
u don’t like being whipped
so throw cream at me
as she grab me from the clouds
i pitch 4 middles 2 those
fingers and toes
dont trip on the slippery decks
stay on deck with stacks

If u want me
you find me
but i blaze
burn colors
u smell them
taste sound
eat hymns
thunder clouds move in,
i rain wisdom and knowledge
i start worlds that i never see grow
Noah? i mean no1! knows me betta

So wat if god is a lady
so no questions sean, no ifs ands or maybes.
But I make be-lief
And try to be brief
but ur a mother focker
u have yet to meet the fam-lee
so life flows too deep and takes me under
be4 i die she pull me out and bring me back.
Saved from the murder!

But i dont want “it”
in hind, seek, and go
they want me but i have no where to run
So they try an find her a home
In hell,
Area 51
so i run to you....Heaven's only watcher
Time gets high but is never up,
so I don’t border

We make it official
stars fall from nights as she past them
light years away
But I pray
4 her to not be shot down
She make it half complete & the other half of the way

So i stop wishing cause i got it.
what i wanted
a gift rapped with sexy hips
on dec 25th
its not nsyc
i will pop tonite
so we elevate and get straight
float off.....
body prob

Give me better days with heavens
and no ghettos.
my heart was aired out like a bag
by heros and foes
let me out of my cage

A beatuiful alien
creator of Alien-kind
the giver of love in this life
Spiderman
i French kiss my Wife
Miss Mary Jane
Can-i-Bliss?
life is 2 short 2 nurse my miseries,
i must hurry across da lowlands
White with snow covered mens and trees
so i spend more time on da mountaintops.


Mountains kiss Heaven.
so she takes off
Burns the atmosphere
glide thro the clouds on a clear morning sky
in a loving hearts smiling eyes
a child holding a father hand
cryies
ask questions?
Whats that, that thing in the sky?
Who, when, what, where, & why’s?
not Far but cant be a star.
Must be something unknown
Secretive
Flying
mysterious object
giving
love
hope
An
U. F. O!

Smoke

Warning: U Will have to read this completely in order to understand.

Smoke
free flowing.
having no rules, no laws,
able to fill a complete room
inhale
a wall, unable to see thru
blocks light,
cuts off oxygen & takes life
healing powers
emotional & mental

Invisible particles of combustion. All the good and greatest blown apart. Liquid particulates and gases formed from what I once that. My perfect lil world now lays in waste. I burn all my hate, anger and adversity. Light candles to cheer up my mood. Oil lamps to light my way. I sit and watch the freeness of Smoke. As a rule, adversity reveals genius and prosperity hides it. But life has no rules and neither does this smokey gas, Having no rules, no laws. I travel like a comet wild
On which some distant sun had smiled,
And from my orbit thus beguiled
With a long tail of smoke.
And smirk with high-born dames who doubt:
Thy flames are quenched, thy fires are out,
And sinking into smoke.
It were, when poets droop in fame,
To see smoke brighten into flame,
Than flames sink into smoke."
The odor vile, the noisome taint
Of horrid, stale smoke
Yet lingers

Lingering bullshit that fucked up my life. How can I smile with this depression on my face like a dimple? It was only my first job. It was only my only income. It’s just a black school in Tallahassee that seems to never answer the phone when u need them to. The aid I need seems to not be on its way this year due to the humans that are on vacation with my aid money but it’s cool. Cool runnings in winter. Exhale hot air that meets the cold oxygen to form smoke. Its only life. Thick, hard to inhale this dark air. Life seems darker then the black side of the moon. I wanna just jook this off and dance on this thin ass ice.
The stars are constantly shining, but often I do not see them until the dark hours. It is during my darkest moments that I must focus to see the light. I want this smoke to clear, wonder what will be left after it settles. Adversity is sometimes hard upon a me; but for one man who can stand prosperity, there are a hundred that will stand adversity. I can’t even bring myself to tear up and cry from the tear gas of smoke. If I traveled to the end of the rainbow as Dame Fortune did intend, Murphy would be there to tell me the pot's at the other end. What a law that was written by Mr. Murphy. (Ironic, i know)
If we study the lives of great men and women carefully and unemotionally we find that, invariably, greatness was developed, tested and revealed through the darker periods of their lives. One of the largest tributaries of the RIVER OF GREATNESS is always the STREAM OF ADVERSITY. Every path has its puddle. But its hard to see them during the fog of adversity. Smoke, Conceive true deception multiplied a million fold. Visualize the yin and yang in a battle so intense that we get em confused. I Take this life dead serious while others entertain it. I let this smoke take my body, My stomach can't digest it even when I bless it. My issues need to be addressed like envelopes and return back in the smokey world of hell it came from. Sores that was open wounds eventually turn to scabs. I will sacrifice every breath I breathe for my love of life. Looking at the canvas of life, compromise my art with this adverse haze that screens out my hope. I search for loopholes in this smoke, but I cant with this Single minded mentality. Adversity runnin up on me like it misses me. Things turn out best for those who make the best of the way things turn out. Tragedy, sadness, loneliness and despair taught me that life is really a beautiful thing; if it wasn't I wouldn't be able to recognize that anything was wrong. The harder I fall, the higher I will bounce. The way I bounce back from this will show myself my true character. Notice I said myself and not you for I can careless about what the world thinks of me.

Smoke
free flowing.
having no rules, following no laws,
able to fill the largest of all spaces
Exhale
a wall, unable to see thru
blocks out every beam of all light,
cuts off oxygen & takes all life
healing powers

Fate, is an excuse for why I end up where I am! MY 'Actions' predetermine MY Destiny; MY 'Reactions' seal that fate. God brings men into deep waters not to drown them, but to cleanse them. Trying my best to never let my head hang down. Never give up and sit down and grieve. I look 2 Find another way. And I make sure to not pray when it rains, if I don't pray when the sun shines. God left the world unfinished for man to work his skill upon. He left the electricity still in the cloud, the oil still in the earth. How often I look upon God as my last and feeblest resource! I go to Him because I have nowhere else to go. And then I learn that the storms of life have driven me, not upon the rocks, but into the desired haven. I have no right to ask when sorrow comes, Why did this happen to me? Unless I ask the same question for every moment of happiness that comes my way. The good things of prosperity are to be wished; but the good things that belong to adversity are to be admired. So I do, I admire the freeness of your ways. Having no edges, but waves of slow moving pale skin. Smoke, in this beautiful nightmare. The bravest sight in the world is to see a great man struggling against adversity. I Struggle hard with life, what keeps me going, what keeps me fighting? The fear of failure. Adversity causes some men to break, others to break records. At the rate that I’m ahead my life should be a sport in the Olympics. Skywriting this only reward. The reward of my suffering is this experience. Love is a smoke made with the fume of sighs. Being purged, a fire sparkling in lovers eyes. Being vexed, a sea nourished with lovers tears. What is it else? A madness most discreet, a choking gall and a preserving sweet.

So Sean Felix Rahmings what do u wanna be when u grow up?
Answer: Alive! Candy apple of my eye. Death's Field is the mirror which allows us the knowledge of the world we living in. I know my name is written in his book but I hope my page is some where between the last page and back cover. Life really does feel like its under. Its hard to look at the world from below. Looking up at the world. Feels like a heart beat with out any bass. So I breathe deep and blow a hole thru this adversity,
Smoke

Smoke
Freed, flowing
Having no rules, no laws,
Able to fill time
Inhale
a divider, unable to distinguish, peer thru
Blocks light,
Cuts off oxygen & takes life
Therapeutic powers
Emotionality & mentality
Smoke from the burned leaf of my life’s
Adversity