Me

Dear Mother,

When it was time 2 create Sean Felix Rahmings(SFR), God went wild wit his imagination & blessed me wit many gifts. Any who…It’s hard to put me on paper but ill try & so far Webster hasn’t found a word 2 sum me up wit or describe me 2 the T. Just know I am high on da food chain. Born the 27th day of the month December N the year of 1987 A.C. the World was forever changed. Many don’t know that our blood aint the same. But she did all the work in life. I love her like a son should love it's mother. The other….well’ she just that well, "E.T. in my world/life" only to give me a bad history for me to tell another about my brothers. Sad but that’s what I have to tell in a paragraph in the book of Sean Felix Rahmings biography. I grew up spoiled and not afraid to say it. I had sisters that would protect me from beatins in the hallway. I love theses memories from my passed and smile when I think about it. The day when life was simple and not filled with worries.
My mother raised me and I would love to have a girl like her with my ring on her finger. You gave me so much and I didn’t realize until I got out of the nest. I didn’t understand until now in my life. I thank every memory that I have from you. I love you and always will. Im thankful for everything u gave me. I never knew how good I had until it was gone. Many days good were I wished I could good back. I will miss you, and always will if that day come when u are callin to go live with happy place angels in a better without people be killed on the street in Miami. This day came really close with the whole cancer that. Yea that hitted me real hard. I lived thinkin that u will always be there. God really open my eyes. The moments when I took you granted I thought I knew everything about life and not know shit. It really came back and bite me in the ass. I never ever saw u able to die. I love you.
I never want you to leave me. I don’t want become lost in my life. You only get 1 and that’s it. I never wat to see zero’s. I need my queen to be in my life. I want everything to come true. Like when you told me that u will be there to see my First children, Me get married, Me ask her to marry me, The day I get my diploma from florida a & m. how you always will be there. I want u too. I know that in life that people don’t just stay the same age other and other and everyday. I see it when I look in the mirror. How my body is changing around me making me into a man. I hope u see these days when it will be at my happiness and blissful moments. Cause I now see the darkest moment in my life and prepare me the others that will follow.
With every up comes an equal down. Nothing in life in free. I remember everything u said and tell me. all your wisdom. Thanks for the pass-age. If not one even me believe in myself u was always on my side. I love for all of this. I appreciate everything thing ill learned. From both good and bad. I want you to always know that know body will take the love that I share with u but 1 hopefully will get close. But I love you and always will. Thanks for everything. You did have to deal with me. and my eyes are not always goin to open in the morning. Just want you to know where I stand. This 20 yr ole version of your baby. like you told me how I will always be your baby boy, that I feel with I say you will always be my momma. I love you, Sean